Insanity or Madness. 6-03-08

Insanity or Madness. 6-03-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Why would a 17 year old child join the military to fight for his country. Adventure, freedom or may be just the fact that a child believes that they are invincible. The military likes enlisted men young because it is easier to completely strip the child’s mind and build it back to the military standards. I remember the exact incident when I believe that I became a man and no longer a new-be on a base deep in Thailand. I felt that I was a Marine and no longer felt inferior to others. I learned how to defer and deflect that which I did not know or understand. I had already lived through two Vietnam Offensives, killed in hand to hand combat, had the crap beat out of me by senior enlisted, I no longer had feelings or emotions that makes a leader question the consequences of his commands. I had come from a child that lost his memory in a car accident a few months earlier to a Marine Sergeant commanding other Marine’s during some questionable times. I was a young man fighting for a country that I did not remember, in a place that I had no idea where it was. I received two more separate disabilities during separate combat support missions.
At 21 I came back to a world that I only knew from what other Marines told me during my 31 months tour. I came back to a world that did not want to understand me just medicate and shelf. I learned to feel that what I did as a U.S. Marine was wrong and against the reality of a civilized society. I learned from the mouths of others that I did not belong back here. I learned how never to discuss the realities of the cruel, demented acts that I had committed for the nation that I came from. At 21, this 17 year old came back to a civilized society a trained killer.
I started volunteering to help others as a means to attempt to fit in. When I first stepped out of the plane at San Francisco Air Port (where I was spit on and called a baby killer to today where the VA questions our medical conditions) my right to live back in the “world” U.S. has been in question. I have over time learned it is not just me. Society makes many disabled Veterans or Veterans that do not realize that they are disabled feel that we do not belong. Politicians only care about the Veteran when it can improve the politicians image to the public. My volunteering every day has become my way to show respect for those over the history of the U.S. (Veterans)so that what they gave was not in vain.
I have over the years violated no laws. I volunteer each year to help thousands of others. I am running for District 21 NH senate. The news media is so biased that they will not announce my candidacy. The NH governor, judges, police and others are intimidated that I might win. The VA, Boston Globe, VA suicide hot line and others are pushing for me to commit suicide. I dream of my death as a solution each day for what I have done. What I did at 17 was to give my life to a nation that now allows a few to diminish the individual rights of our Constitution to make life better for a select few at the expense of others. I may not win the election but that what I do is to make life better for all Equally.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi