How do you know how to ask someone for help 7-17-08

How do you know how to ask someone for help 7-17-08
Send a copy of this letter to the VA inspector General
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
How do you know when it is time to ask for help? Whom do you trust? Everyone has their own agenda. I came back from 31 months over seas during the Vietnam conflict with no memory of any part of my life prior to leaving the states. After Boot camp I was in a car accident that left me with no memory of my child hood at all (TBI). Because of an Admin error I was sent overseas with the mind of a child. I was injured twice more in two separate combat support missions. Thirty years after coming back from the Vietnam Conflict I am diagnosis with PTSD. I continuously re-live sticking a bayonet into a child younger than the 17 year old Marine wanting to Kill. I had been captured by three of the enemy. I killed to get my M-16 back and escape, when I was deep in the “Bush” as an American Advisor on convoy. Whom do you ask for help when every one back in the “world” has an agenda to disprove that you exist. Should I have killed my self before coming back to a world that I do not belong?
I rose to the rank of Sgt, with no friends because I had no feelings for any one or thing. I needed to complete my mission at any cost. I completed my Marine Corps tour and was dropped into a society that could not accept what I had done or lived for. I was an out-cast with no memory or social skills in a place where every one was protesting the Vietnam War. I went to college where every one was younger than I, telling me what I did was wrong or that it is inconceivable to believe what I experienced. I repressed my feelings and thoughts and eventually married a beautiful woman. I had the ability to achieve anything because I had no feelings or regret for the consequences. I started volunteering to help others because I (for what I did) came back alive and I should not have. My wife and children taught me responsibility because it was the norm of a parent. My volunteer work started being for people in need or in desperate situation. I studied the Constitution and social responsibility at UNH. I was a Marine Sergeant.
A Madbury NH family asked me for help with a zoning issue. The Madbury selectmen were clearly violating the Constitution (in the selectmen’s own words and paper work) to harm this family for personal reasons. Because I volunteered to help this family the United States has turned it’s back on me. Judge Peter Fauver Violated the Constitution to protect the Madbury selectmen. The NH supreme court covered up to protect Fauver. The NH governor and elected officials used the courts and law in an illegal, corrupt way to silence this volunteer. The VA stopped a 100% disabled Veteran’s medical care for political self gain. The News censors the truth from the people..
By all reality I came into this world at the age of 17 after my accident out of boot camp to live in a world that I do not belong. I learned and practiced how to be a good citizen after I killed for all of you. Is it time to ask for help? Whom do you ask? Has the people of the United State of America lost perspective on our Constitution? That only selfish individual U.S. citizen’s self needs matter? I am running for NH district 21 senate. Is the U.S. government, Veteran’s administration, and U.S. citizens telling me that I have come to far and need to commit suicide. How do we know to ask someone? Whom do we ask? Does reality really exist? As a candidate should my letters be published for the People’s self interest? The VA is killing me to make NH elected officials in Concord happy. Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi