Proud to be an American 5-13-08

Proud to be an American 5-13-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I am proud of my actions. The Concord Monitor acknowledges that they have been reading my letters for years and decided that there may be a human interest story? I am not looking for fame. I did not write about my volunteer helping others to become popular. The C-monitor as do others tell me that I sound angry. I am not. I am proud to help others even at the cost of my own life. NH State Senator Clegg suggested that I tell some good letters. This is why I wrote about helping others. I will never expose any person that I help to the ridicule and harassment that my volunteering has placed on my family. I asked the newspapers to print my opinion letters. My letters tell the truth. Newspaper ethics no longer exists. What facts can interviewing me give you that my letters do not contain. I will talk to any one that wants to interview me though.
I served our country. I was stationed in Thailand and did eight convoys across Thailand, Laos and Cambodia delivering surplus supplies to friendly camps as an American Advisor. I landed in Vietnam TAD to repair some launch and recovery equipment. I lived through a mortar attack, had a bullet pass within inches of my head, watched the out house I had just left explode. I lived and ate in some of the dirtiest, grossest conditions and ordered men in my platoon in to places I knew that they would die during my 31 month tour over seas. I was injured three separate times, twice during combat support missions and I returned to the “world” 100% disabled. My traumatic brain injury left me with no memory of my family or life back here in the “world” states. I returned to a place that I do not belong. I still have no memory of my family.
I relive events every day of places I can not identify because of my brain injury. I see a Vietnam immigrate on the street and my killing another human being engulfs my thoughts. A person that I am talking to or passes me on the street and I hear their conversation about our Military killing innocent people. You that have never been their can not conceive living in hell. There are no innocent people in a conflict. You can trust no one and most important you can not let emotions or feeling enter the equation. I entered the Marine Corps at 17 and I witness the face of the child that I killed with a bayonet every day. My wife accuses me of having no feelings. I feel no guilt for killing that kid but the words of the people that I did it for make me want to feel ashamed.
The news refuses to inform it’s readers of the facts because my volunteer helping others exposed judge Peter Fauver’s crimes against the peace and dignity of the citizens of the state of NH. The VA stopped my medical care. NH put me in jail as a terrorist. The state, local police and Strafford county sheriff harass my family to stop my letters. I am not angry. I have not violated the law. I volunteer every day to help others because I came back alive and many better men than I died. I owe these Veterans over the history of our nation the respect and gratitude not to let what they gave their lives for be in vain. “Our Constitution”. I am proud to stand for what is right and honorable. Anger can have no part in my life.
The United States of America.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi