People Tell Me 9-26-08

People Tell Me 9-26-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
The Amazing part is that I write these letters every day. People tell me including Veteran’s Administration Doctors and officials, and the public that I should not be ashamed or feel bad for what I did. I should speak up to society and tell them that I did it for them. In the beginning I did just that, only to be scorned by righteous do good-errs. The thing is I do not feel guilty or ashamed for what I did. People that have never been there assume guilt is the problem. It is not. You all think we are monsters because of what we did. I am proud to be a U.S. Marine and served my country. I have no idea, what every day different happenings bring up in-depth visions of what I did. I see the U.S. differently than others. I see it through the eyes of freedom and utopia. A goal that society believes because you have never been with out, it will always be here. I do not want to commit suicide because of guilt or shame. I feel the need to die because I came back to a place that I do not belong. I for over thirty years lived with re-living in my mind every day to a place of chaos and destruction and accepted it. The conflicts of the VA telling society how they are working to prevent Veteran’s suicides and then the VA telling me to commit it. So many public official’s, police, newspapers and others have told me to commit suicide, yet publicly society spends tax dollars to save us. These are documented facts that society has been told and no one cares. My opinion letters are purposely with held from the public because the newspapers do not respect veterans. Besides the Boston Globe in writing telling me to commit suicide, newspapers wrote articles about my opponent in the recent NH primary. These articles told how great she was but miss represented the truth to make me look bad to the voters. I do not have to worry about suicide any way. My medical was stopped to stop my writing any more letters to the editors. It was restarted but it is only so the books show the public that I was never denied it. I have told the VA about my head and body pain. I have told them about my loss of consciousness and reality at any moment during the day. I have done all this in writing, as in this letter. I send these letters every day to newspapers, judges, government officials, VA hospitals, VA investigators. VA department head, and many more. The VA refuses to give me any medical help.
I volunteered to help a Madbury family that only knew me from a letter to the editor that I wrote. Judge Fauver criminal with intent to cause harm violated the Constitution to allow the Madbury selectmen to use government powers for revenge against local residents. The NH supreme court covered up this case. Our elected officials used government powers to keep it from the public. The Newspapers refuse to inform the public of the truth. These facts are all well documented, yet no one cares.
All the harm society has allowed to be slammed in my face, I with out hesitation will not bend in stopping my belief in the United States of America. The amazing thing is society refuses to see the democratic and republican parties have gained so much influence, we the people must elect one of them (that they control). The Amazing thing is the newspapers stop my letters as if freedom of the press is meant to blind side the public.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi