Reality or Dream 9-8-08

Reality or Dream 9-8-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Elections are tomorrow yet why? No one seems to live by the rules of the Constitution. Have all means of redress of grievances failed? Is it not the people’s right to take up arms against those in power when these leaders violate even one guaranteed right of the individual? I woke up one day in a military hospital with no memory of any part of my life and to this day, my memory has not returned. I spent the next 31 months over seas fighting for a country that I had no memory of. I was 17, and a United States Marine. Can you imagine killing someone before you remember kissing your first U.S. girl. I have described so many times, the putrid living conditions and insane uncivilized acts that our military live and do to defend this nation. Can you imagine coming back to a nation where killing and mayhem are against the law, yet that is all you know. I had, no more superiors to obey and no men to lead. The rules in a civilized society did not make since. I went to college and started volunteering to just try to survive in a country that I dreamed of living long enough to just visit once before I died. My head injury left me with memory problems which created even more problems socializing and interacting with others. My hearing injury from being blown of the runway made it so that hearing and grasping more than a few words out of a sentence difficult. My back pain from my injury received during another Vietnam offensive made even letting a girl touch my back (for fear of exposing my pain) (which Marine’s never do) difficult. I had been instructed so many times that we (meaning returning military) do not talk about what we did over seas that I learned to seek silence as my memories as a Marine would now flash terrifying events in to the reality of my daily life. Did I at 17, defend a nation where every individual by law has the equal right to elected office.
The newspapers censor my opinion letters. Judge Fauver Violated the Constitution 29 times to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to seek personal revenge on local Madbury residents. NH declares me a terrorist and takes my freedom because I volunteer to help this Madbury family The NH Supreme Court refused to hear a case that I spelled out Judge Fauver’s crimes so even a 1st grader would see. The newspapers tell the public that my letters are threatening and takes words out of context to prove it but refuses to print the entire letter. My letters state truths and facts and do not threaten any one. U.S. NH Rep Shea-Porter files a false police report to get me arrested to stop my letter. When this fails she has a VA Dr Biswas file involuntary commitment orders to stop my letter. When this fails the VA stops my medical care. So much has happen and the courts and government do not follow the Constitution, that I decide to run for public office. The newspapers print great articles about the person running against me but scares the public with false facts about me. I write letters stating my opinion, views, goals and platform yet the newspapers refuse to print my opinion letters.
Over time I have learned when my medical condition is going to take over my life. I learned to be alone until reality returns. I have learned to cover the pain but do admit every once in awhile a squeak escapes in the public arena. I volunteer every day to help others because I owe those (friends, U.S. military personal) better that me that gave their lives for the country that I dreamed to one day see.
But why? This nation and my life would have been better if I had come home in a body bag. My medical care was restarted but it is now only for the record to demonstrate for the public that this Veteran receives care. Every thing is so confusing. The VA publicly starts programs to prevent returning veteran’s from committing suicide. The Director of the NH VA tells me to commit suicide. The VA suicide hotline hounds me to pressure me into suicide. The VA uses the local police to embarrass my family to provoke my suicide. The Boston Globe in writing tells me to commit suicide. NH governor Lynch sends the NH State Police to my home to inform me that the governor would prefer my suicide. Judge Fauver uses the local sheriff to arrest me to seek my suicide. Does the U.S. want Veterans to commit suicide just not publicly. Is the courts and government officials allowed to us government powers for retaliation. Why did our fore fathers put in the constitution the importance of the peoples’ opinion. Does Freedom of the Press only to allow editors unlimited powers to control public information. Why have the American’s with Disabilities Act if government officials can use it to discriminate against 100% service connected disabled Veterans they want to silence.
Not breaking the law. Not following the procedures set by our greatest law the Constitution. Not volunteering to help others continuously and with out regrets. Just do not make sense. Why I had to come back. My head pain has gotten to the point where suicide does make sense because nothing else does. I volunteer every day even when the pain in my left hand was so bad that using it was impossible. I bend down to pick trash up on the side of the road even though my broke back tells me not to. No matter what the effect or pain I have to show respect for what so many over the history of this nation gave their lives for. People tell me to give up. If giving up is why so many children give their lives to defend the freedom 89 percent of you enjoy, just tell me why
Election are so the voters have a choice. That no longer exists in the United States of America. Am I really back in the country that I dreamed of one day just seeing once.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper