Where do I want to go 6-26-09

Where do I want to go 6-26-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Confused, suicidal-where do I want to go? I am a no-body caught in a world that just does not make sense. You endure the pain of your disabilities but people do not believe you are disabled because you do not show it. VA health care is to help Veterans back in the world but the politicians can cut you off to stop your opinion letters. Government officials use the law and courts to control people that do not obey their demands. The courts are used to enforce these demands legal or not unless one has enough money or public support to stop them. They are called the goody two shoes or the righteous ones. The moral perfect citizens until you look in their closets. The average citizen is to scared of loosing what they have to speak openly to stop this minority. Support is silent until it can benefit those trusted with the power of the people. Elaine and Ed Brown had the American dream until the law showed them not to speak to correct the wrongs in government. The newspapers inflame the public by denouncing the free sprit of the individual. All newspaper articles are now tainted to support those willing to control the majority with out mercy from an unnoticed way. The Marine in Loon NH that is praised for saving a cops life one day and sent to jail the next because some one with power did not like this Hero.
The pain in my back will become unbearable today as I volunteer to help others. My mind will wonder off to my alternate worlds as others see me as distant. The wave of a tree will bring back the boredom of the conflict and the hawk killing the pray will remind me of a time unacceptable to where I am. Shooting pains in my head will only be handled by the cover of a rock or wall so others do not have to be concerned. The bloody nose will end my day of volunteering because society will want to show pity.
Living in a world that does not make since. One day I am tied up at a camp fire deep in the bush only to kill and escape to save freedom. I come back to a land that gives me everything accept freedom. People question my not knowing anything because no one can grasp the idea of full amnesia. I volunteer to help others because that is what even in the Marine Corps believing everyone needed help was my passion. Helping the farmer in the Bush or the Marine with a dear John letter. Volunteering to help fix a childs bike or helping other Marines fix a 272 million dollar launch catapult.
I volunteered to help a Madbury family that the selectmen were using government powers to drive them out of town. Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the Constitution to help the Madbury selectmen. The NH supreme court covered up the case when presented to them. The support that I get is overwhelming as long as these public citizens are not named. People are to afraid that what the government can do to a 100% disabled U.S. Marine illegally and get away with it will be far worse for them.
I have done nothing wrong. I have violated no laws. I volunteer to help. Can this be my punishment for coming home to a land that I do not belong. I must go volunteer now because pain is my way of stopping the depressed state of mind.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi