Veterans in NH 4-29-09

Veterans in NH 4-29-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I sat in my car and cried yesterday. The overwhelming guilt of coming back alive when so many better than I did not. I helped people yesterday, volunteering in Alton and Rochester NH. On my way home I drove down Rt 125 in my Geo Metro convertible trying to make since out of the day. I went past the Lee circle and straight to a bar on Rt 125 in Epping. At the bar a young farmer from Kingston NH started a conversation with me about his girl friend in the hospital recovering from open heart surgery. His voice was in a tone that only a few intermitting words were in my range to hear. I lost most of my hearing being blown off the runway during my tour in the Marine Corps. The words that I did hear allowed me to understand and give some consoling words to encourage him but not elaborate on the social agenda. He noticed the words Marine Corps on my cap and asked if I served. I acknowledged that I had and he thanked me for my service as he exited the bar. Some one that I knew from past times at this bar then came in and sat next to me. He noticed something different about me and asked the question “What is up”. I then started to explain to this U.S. Military Veteran (friend) that it bothers me when someone thanks me for my service because I do not deserve it. I told him what I did for the U.S. during my Vietnam conflict tour does not even compare to those in the bush every day. I could not finish my second beer as the sharp pain in my head alerted me. The childs eyes as I pulled the bayonet out and he fell to the ground filled my head. I sat in the parking lot unable to start my car right off because of the tears running down my face. It was not guilt or emotions, coming back to a place that I do not belong made a U.S. Marine Cry.
It is like following the rules and laws back here does not matter. Judge Peter Fauver violated the Constitution to harm other U.S. citizens. The Madbury NH selectmen used the courts and government powers to drive local residents that they do not like out of their town. This family reads an opinion letter in the paper that I wrote and called me for help. I volunteer my time because it is the right then to do. NH violates the laws and constitution to stop me from exposing criminal government wrongs. The newspapers censor the public from learning the truth. The NH supreme court when presented the case covers up the criminal acts of Judge Fauver. I lose my medical care for combat related disabilities and my freedom unless I stop writing opinion letters. I lost all of my memory of the U.S. from one of my service disabilities. TBI. I came back to a nation that I do not remember or belong. I came back to a nation that thanks me with one hand and rejects me for returning with the other. What has happen that makes tears cloud my geo metro windshield /
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi