Old Veteran 5-1-09

Old Veteran 5-1-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I am just an old Fart, a Veteran that came home to attempt to under stand the demons acquired by youth and a belief in a nation to love. As most if not all Veterans, silence and control to keep the public from learning the harsh reality of what we do for their and our Freedom. Most Veterans get on with their lives as these demons relish in the memory only to be heard from less and less as the years go on. A child left home to become a member of the U.S. Military and some get educated with cruel, in human, uncivilized acts of life. We live like pigs and feel lucky just to be alive. We endure some of the most horrific non believable conditions and experiences, only to be unable to talk about them. If for some reason we do talk about our experiences we are not believed or referred to as baby killers or worse. We create death all around us and dreaming our end is near just to end reality so something is real. The contradiction of wanting to survive to live out our lives in a country where freedom is real. A country that secretly does not want us but at the same time praises us for what we have done. The image of politicians telling the public Veterans deserve our care but behind closed doors slash any money to carry out that care. We will end up old farts unable to contribute to their coffers of money so let the disabled veteran fade silently into the streets.
Reality is if we ask for help, it is considered a plead for pity. The consequences of the appearance to let out what we have become takes over in silence. People back here in the U.S. are just incapable of accepting the impossible. What idiot would stand in front of an F-4 doing 600 knots and stopping with in 15 feet of you. Whom would be stupid enough to toot a load M16 through the country side just to kill others or be killed himself because the enemy was quicker. Can it be socially acceptable to stick a bayonet in a child to silence that child for eternity? Do we push aside wounded or injured until the mission is complete before attempting to aid these fallen friends. Did we become killing machine incapable of emotion toward others for ever. Will those of us trying to fit into society learn to display false feelings to demonstrate we belong back here. Will the word pity be used as a catalyst to shame us to remain silent until we can be disposed of in a civilized social manner.
What idiot would believe in a document called the constitution and volunteer to help other U.S. citizens? Can people be so dumb to believe exposing the criminal act of Judge Peter Fauver would be accepted? Is any one so naive to believe that if a dumb ass U.S. Marine presented a case to the NH supreme court of criminal constitutional violations of the Constitution by a judge that the SC would protect the peoples rights.
I am proud of my service in the U.S. Marine Corps. I am proud that I volunteer every day to help others. I am proud of being put in jail as a terrorist for believing in our constitution so much that I am so dumb to present such a case to the NH Supreme Court. I will not be violent or violate the law but I will stand till my death if that is what it takes to represent those that have fallen, this respect not to let any one group diminish our Constitution in any way. Our children gave their lives for this Constitution.
The reality is this letter will be censored because it is the words of a U.S. Marine. I am just an old fart that society needs and wants to expel.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper FI