State of a Nation 5-26-09

State of a Nation 5-26-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I am a fifty seven year old person. Why do the memories of my days as a child in the Marine Corps never leave me? Why do I talk and no one hears me? Like yesterday many people that never responded to my opinion letters before responded to my Memorial day letter. Yet the editors and elected officials refuse to acknowledge that I even exist. Many, many people read my letters every day yet do they hear what I am saying? Can this be real? I am 100% disabled from my time in the MC. I am the luckiest person alive because I came back. I came back with no memory from a traumatic brain injury. I build and learned everything in my life since wakening up in a Military Hospital. The MC shipped me overseas with no memory at all. I did a thirty one month tour in and out of combat situations learning as I went. I kill before I remember kissing my first round eyed girl. I came back and learned to volunteer every day because I needed to give because many better men than I will never return, given their lives for your freedom. I came back with three more disabilities from separate missions only to have the VA stop my medical care to stop my opinion letters. The checks and balances in our system fail when elected officials control the power, yet no one hears me!
People tell me that in a civilized society people talk out their problems rather than use violence. Yet our elected officials charge me money to talk, they never talk to me! I ran for NH state senate this past election only to scare those in power so the election was fixed. Do I exist or am I still in that benjo ditch from long ago? I write about returning veterans being left out in the street because of failures in our system. No one hears my words but they do listens to them. The NH Supreme Court refused to hear a case presented to them by me that detailed and documented the criminal violations of our Laws and Constitution by judge Peter Fauver to intentionally harm U.S. citizens. Placing the facts in letters, by me made public so many times yet no one hears my words. My letters tell the people that a judge is a criminal getting away with crimes against the people would be criminal if not true. People cry about the state of the economy but no one hears the words documenting the criminal acts of the leaders spending the money.
I live in two worlds but does anyone hear my questions of reality. I many times have come back to realize death is near as the demons of my conflict, flash in my mind. Months ago I jumped off a cliff fully aware, with out the demons only to have the wind lift me to the top of a birch tree that safely lowered me to the ground. The scare on my upper leg has faded as the memory will soon.
I am a 17 year old U.S. Marine on convoy as an American Advisor deep in the bush. I crash land in a c-117 or catch a fighter jet doing 600 hundred knots with a tail hook. I am blown off a runway only to get up in time to catch the next pilot in need. Enemy mortar blows the out house that I just left and a sniper bullet passes with in inches of my head. These memories never leave can the people hear your child when they return from.
You the people back here can not see what is in a Veterans head but trying maybe you can hear. We gave to protect and defend our Constitution so that freedom existed and equal justice for all would continue. Save the nation by hearing the people.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi