Emotions of a Killer 4-20-08

Emotions of a Killer 4-20-08
Give a copy of this letter to VA officials, IG and Dr Potenza of the NH VA hospital
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Understanding what can not be understood? The mad rush of information filling the spaces left blank by the short term memory loss. Tied of hearing it. I am tied of living it but my three U.S. Marine Corps disabilities leave me no choice. A civilized society where communication and living with in the limits of the law allows equal treatment for all. My vacation ended as every memory of NH disappeared. My only memory was flash-backs brought on by the thatched roof hooch’s on the beaches. I believed that I was that 17 year old Marine killing with out emotion or feeling. No guilt for what I have done. Am I wrong for not understanding what I know that no one back here in the world (U.S.) understands? Are judges and government officials granted special powers that allows them to violate the Constitution on the disabled?
The application in my mail for PTSD disability waiting for me caused my writing a letter about that. I had totally forgot that the VA in NH had stopped my VA medical to help the NH government officials limit my free speech. Understanding why the newspapers edit or censor opinion letters of the public is unethical (yes)? Government officials violating the law to harm citizens for personal self gain is against the law. Judge Peter Fauver using the Sheriff’s office to attempt to scare citizens is against the law. The Madbury NH selectmen using the government powers to seek personal revenge on local residents is against the law. The VA and NH government falsely harming my character to make the system’s checks and balances ring alarms when I speak stops the flow of the truth. Understanding a world (U.S.) that I had no place ever returning alive, to a civilized society does not make sense? The “truth is a powerful weapon” only when communicated.
Understanding that I seem to fit into society in appearances does not make sense. I have not violated the law. I have a great wife and kids. I volunteer everyday to help others, friends and even people that I had never met. I pay my bills and live what should be considered a good life. I to this day feel no guilt or emotion for killing. The law instructs me if I mention killing in my letters that I will be arrested again. My country, wife, kids and you, mean everything to me but I display false good emotions because I learned when I first came back that is expected if I was to fit in. Do I understand? Do the newspapers understand that the opinion of the people is what Thomas Jefferson said “is the basis of our government”. To Censor the people’s opinion is wrong. If what I say is not the truth then Judge Fauver, NH government, Town of Madbury and any one else has legal recourse. If what I say is the truth (and it is) The news media and the people of the U.S. have allowed a disabled U.S. Marine that gave every thing for his country die in vain. Censorship by the news media will kill this Nation (United States). What ever happen to the “American’s with disabilities act”? Is discrimination against a 100% disabled U.S. Marine allowed because my public images was purposely harmed by the powerful? I volunteer every day to say thank you to those U.S. military Veteran’s that gave to make the United States a Nation of We the People. Am I wrong?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi