Memory of a Veteran and suicide 4-19-08

Memory of a Veteran and suicide 4-19-08
A copy to Dr Dan Potenza and Mark Levenston at the Manchester NH VA hospital
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Everyone hears my words but no one will listen. These are the thoughts as I remember my life back here in the “world” U.S. One of my three service connected injuries from the U.S. Marine Corps is complete loss of memory of my life prior to my 17 birthday. I forget people, names, events and any thing else unless constantly reminded. My short term memory loss is a part of my daily life. I wrote a letter yesterday on PTSD because of a application from the VA that I received in the mail, my first day back from vacation. I completely forgot about Judge Peter Fauver and his criminal acts that the judicial system refuses to correct. I was reminded by an article in the paper today about Judge Coffey being suspended because she violated the law by tampering with evidence and fraud. If the average citizen did these criminal acts we would go to jail. Do we now live in a society with two sets of rules, one for the special class and the other for the rest of us. Our Constitution addresses this subject by protecting the people against such abuse of power. Judge Coffey violated the law and is not prosecuted, should we not ask why? Will we be put in jail because the people dare say Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal and Judge Coffey is a criminal? Everyone hears my words because the NH State Police, local Police and the Sheriff’s office harass my family and I to stop my free speech.
U.S. Congresswoman Shea-Porter interfered and used my service connected disabilities to harm me. The VA stops my medical care for injuries received in the line of duty. All because I dare help a Madbury NH family with a zoning issue. I did not understand the tears in my eyes yesterday as I wrote about PTSD. The desire to commit suicide seemed to create a doom of relieve from the constant reminder that I can kill with out feeling. Last week I several times laid in a thatched roof hooch on the beech which brought back my time on convoy as an American advisor. The judicial system is doing illegal acts to stop my telling the U.S. that judge Peter Fauver is a criminal. This Madbury NH family (whom I had never met) asked me for help. I obey the law and help this family, yet the government officials violate the law to stop me. The news media purposely censors the public from the truth which does not make sense.
I ask my self did I really serve in the U.S. Marine Corps? Did I really kill another human being for a worthless piece of paper (Our Constitution). I do not have PTSD. I have a constant reminder that I killed for a nation that just does not want to hear the truth when it involves judges and government officials miss using their powers.
The VA and Boston Globe have asked me to commit suicide, yet they refuse to print my response. I have the request in writing yet no one hears me. I have volunteered my time every day to help others no matter what, since I returned from a conflict in 1974. You would think some newspaper across the U.S. would see the need to tell the people that what the U.S. military veterans did was for you. I believe that I should not have come back from the conflict alive. I can understand how my thoughts of a nation, where all the people have equal protection of the law was a false impression built in the mind of someone with amnesia. Hearing my words or not just no longer matters, but I will continue to speak until death do us part.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi