Response to VA suicide article 4-21-08 VA file no 27-537-156

Response to VA suicide article 4-21-08 VA file no 27-537-156
A copy to the VA inspector general and Dr Dan Potenza of the NH VAH
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
A New Hampshire Senator tells me that I should forget Judge Peter Fauver’s criminal acts to intentionally harm other NH residents that the NH Supreme court refuse to hear. He wants me to talk about good times so that the newspapers will print my letters. This is my most cherished memory during a conflict that I came back 100% disabled (two of my three injuries came during separate combat support missions).
I had just completed my first kill in hand to hand combat. The time was around 3am deep in the Bush of Cambodia or Laos. A scared young Marine ran through the Bush back to the village, awoke the drivers and started the convoy early that day. I had gone against orders by allowing 5 trucks to divert from the convoy to visit these drivers families that they had not seen for months. We met the other thirteen trucks in a village about 2 hours later. I carried my M-16 upside down on my shoulder as a friendly jester to the locals as I inspected the waiting trucks. On my way back to the lead truck I came across a little girl crying just off the path. With out a word she held her wooden doll up with a piece of the arm broken off. I looked up at the back of the near by truck and saw a nail sticking out of a pallet. I cut the head off the nail with my bayonet and sharpened the end. I took the broken arm and forced one end of the nail into it. I sat down beside the girl, smiled and she put the doll in my open hand. I pulled the sleeve above the break and forced the broken piece with the nail into the upper arm. I pulled the sleeve down and gave the doll back. The little girl returned my smile as a hand touched my shoulder and the first American words that I had heard in days filled the air. I looked up to see the hand was that of the lead driver saying Thank You in English.
The first words that I remember my first time that I remember setting foot in the U.S. was at the San Francisco Airport after a Hippy spit on me was “Baby Killer”. I very seldom ever spoke of my service to the U.S. after that. A NH senators letter made me realize this girl is why I am helping this Madbury NH family. I volunteer everyday to help others because one little girl smiled in the middle of hell, gave a Marine with no memory of the U.S. hope that some day maybe I could see the world that I was serving. Now that country wants to allow a criminal judge to harm the very Individuals that we the U.S. military veterans gave our lives for.
The NH VA and the Boston Globe have asked me to commit suicide before writing any more letters. I have it in writing. This contradicts the VA policy of saying they are trying to prevent suicide. I will die before I will allow the very meaning that so many U.S. military over the history of this nation gave their lives for to be diminished. If newspapers choose to censor my letters it is their choice that is what it is all about “FREEDOM”. A little girls smile reminds me that what I did was to stop acts like judge Fauver from ever happening in the U.S. I want to die because I do not belong back here in a civilized society. I will not because to tarnish what so many Veteran’s gave this nation U.S. with out giving every once of effort to correct the wrong of government is treason. The State of NH refuses to allow me to speak to the NH senate or house and the NH governor ignores the request of a 100% disabled Veteran, yet a NH senator can ask me to stop helping a NH resident because of a unfavorable NH Supreme Court act.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi