Am I GOD??? 11-27-08

Am I GOD??? 11-27-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Am I GOD! Is that why I will not die, now matter how close I come? Today is Thanksgiving. A day for us all to thank, I guess ourselves? I have many unanswered questions of “why I am here” “whom am I” “is this a dream and I am really dead” the list just keeps growing. Are you confused? Well so am I. Getting into the Veteran’s Admin stopping my VA medical care for my 100% service connected disabilities seems useless to talk about. The (I want to say lack of) compassion or even the slightest bit of caring from any individuals leaves me to thing that I must be invisible. I get calls every day from friends and people that I do not even know (that got my number from someone else) for help. I stop and talk to people that I meet on the street that seem to be in despair or just could use a friend for a second or too. I volunteer every day to help others because I came back alive. I believe I owe those that came home dead or never at all this respect to make our nation better in any way that I can. I am not asking for your pity. I get some hate mail from people and others just tell me to stop writing. Most tell me to keep going because it is about time that someone stood for right against the powerful. You (the people of the United States) can use me to illustrate what is happening to Veteran’s across the US. We have checks and balances to stop government wrongs yet in a case (where the Veteran has been lost under the rug) of some veterans there is no help. I have four serious medical conditions from my tour in the USMC. Three are combat related. It is against the law for the government to use anyone’s medical condition as a weapon to stop a person from writing letters to the editor. It is a slap in the face to our forefathers for the newspapers to censor the opinion of a 100% disabled veteran (or any citizen) when expressing wrongs in government. Even if the editors disagree with the opinion.
I guess wishing to come back alive to see the US once before you give your life for her is a night mare. It is one of those dreams if you understood what it meant you never would have wished for it. Judge Peter Fauver used the power of the court to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen wanted to inflict harm on. The NH supreme court knowingly allowed this by refusing to hear a case that documented and spelled it out clearly to protect the legal empire’s dominance over the people. I volunteer my time to help Madbury NH residents and the courts and government use my medical condition to stop me. Everyone is to afraid to speak up for fear this will happen to them.
Thanksgiving is not a time to say thank you. It is a time at the end of harvest season where excess crops would be cooked and shared with others as a way not to waste them. I suffered head pain while drinking my coffee at a local coffee shop this morning. I wanted to die so bad at that moment. I do not want to live through another Thanksgiving. I am not GOD. I am a US citizen (that happens to be a 100% disabled US Marine). You the people of the United States of America are allowing our constitutional rights to be left to waste in the fields. I am not sure which is worse the pain from my disabilities received defending this great nation or the pain of seeing what our children (US Military) gave their lives for being diminished.
You in NH are doing this to me but let my life illustrated the pain you are doing to too many Veterans lost under the rug.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi