Survive the Mission for what? 11-14-08

Survive the Mission for what? 11-14-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Parts of yesterday do not exist in my mind. My head is like a broken record trying to piece it together. My first few years out of the Military hospital Portsmouth everyone informed me how great it must be not to remember. I would inform them that it would be like everyone else not knowing something that they did not do and being told about it. I was introduced to my parents at the time and then while serving overseas 31 months my mother would tell me about the others in letters. I had no memory of ever being in the U.S. at all. I believed the conditions that existed overseas was what the U.S. was like. My mother and other Marine’s would talk about life back here. I did school through the mail to understand the basic functions of life through math and English classes. Over time, after I came back people that knew me growing up would make up stories about us that I believed. Over time in talking to others I would talk about the stories as if I remembered them. People started believing that I was a liar. So then I started asking (whom I believed was my younger brother) if the facts were true, now each time someone told me something. That question always lingers whom am I, as yesterday was no different.
I do have constant memories of my past as a U.S. Marine. I now under stand how it would be nice not to remember. I am proud of what I did and who I am. People back here can not understand this. You all praise the Marine Corps and what we do but constantly have that silent disgust for our actions. I get phone calls, e-mails and cards from across the U.S. from other military veterans having a hard time. It is not that the U.S. is cruel to veterans the public just has no understanding of what is happening in our heads. You put Veterans in jail because the silent demons of war could not let them live in a civilized society. You neglect those that can not function to earn a living by leaving them homeless on the street to die. You cast aside those that the flash-backs take years after discharge to erupt as not qualified for VA medical care. You stop those Veterans that use free speech to inform others, medical care for combat related injuries. The U.S. Public is kept in the dark by the news media so believing such fantastic, cruel facts is not acceptable. I have a constant memory of other Marines telling me we are fighting for equal protection of every U.S. citizen against abusive government actions. I should have asked my brother if this was true before I believed it.
I volunteer to help a Madbury NH family. Judge Fauver criminally violated the constitution to harm U.S. citizens. The Madbury NH selectmen use government powers to harm U.S. citizens for their own personal acts of revenge. The NH Supreme Court protect Fauver’s criminal acts to protect their empire. The VA stops my medical care. Law enforcement harasses me. The news media censors my letters. I survived many difficult encounters for the chance to see the U.S. once before I gave my life for her.
Every thing is different than I learned while a Marine. Government officials violate the law. The news only prints the truth when it favors their needs. Elections are fixed and no one cares. People look down on me because I do not fit into their society. I do not want your pity. I just want it to end. We came back to a society that we do not belong because society can not accept whom we became. Society can not even believe what NH and the VA have done to me just because I volunteer to help others.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi