Mental-Veteran-VA 1125-08

Mental-Veteran-VA 1125-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I remember my biggest concern while serving in the U.S. Marine Corps was that I would lose a limb during my tour. My biggest dream was living long enough to see the U.S. just once (that I would remember) before I died as a U.S. Marine. Losing a limb would have meant certain death, because I would have ended it. Instead I came home with no memory of life back here from TBI. A broken back from a Vietnam offensive. Loss of hearing in both ears from being blown off a runway. Now after thirty years out the VA diagnosed me with PTSD. I have struggled for over thirty years to live in a society that does not want me. Not me as a person but as a Veteran that did in-human acts and lives by a code of placing the U.S. Honor above anything else. Not me as an individual but me as all veterans.
Yesterday I wrote a letter VA violates law. My head was pounding and I have no memory of writing that letter. I know that it must have been just after I pressed the email button sending the letter to 2800 email address I laid on the couch with a bloody nose. I woke up several hours later when a friend called to ask for my help. I rode around on a commercial lawn mower vacuuming up leaves. My friend kept asking me where I was, during the day. I was caught in two worlds. One back here in the U.S. trying to make the best out of what I do not understand. The other was on convoy as American Advisor through hostile territory riding with men that did not speak any American.
The VA violated the law by stopping my VA medical. Having the Suicide hotline harass me. The person in charge of the NH, VA telling me to commit suicide. Restarting my VA medical with limited and sub-standard care. They do this to aid the NH government to stop my letters to the editor. What happen to the checks and balances to stop such criminal acts from harming a 100% disabled veteran? No one cares!
The newspapers across the U.S. refuse to print the truth. Many say it does not concern their readers. Many say this is a personal matter. Many say that their concern for libel suits out ways any possibility of publishing my letters. Many believe that I am a mental U.S. Veteran in need of care. I am a U.S. Military Veteran on an Island floating in a country that does not want me and a world that I do not belong. The Veterans Today magazine got my hopes up last year when they published my letters. They now censor a mental (with out care) veteran. I honestly understand why some U.S. Military commit suicide while serving in dangerous areas. They see the writing on the wall before coming back to a society that can not understand where they are? Some returning Veterans quickly learn and commit suicide once back. Many slip into a world of reliving what we have done only to be only alienated from the ones we love and a nation that can not accept us. I have been lucky I have a great wife that’s love endures my wavering lonely times. I have friends that create busy work to keep me safe in times of questions at a cost of time and money to themselves.
You see I realize that many if not thousands of Veterans feel the doubts of reality of why we came back. Many fit into society by camouflaging the dreams and memories of what others can not accept. Some die, others go to jail or become homeless.
Newspaper censoring the words of the people violates the code of US Honor.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi