VA Suicide Hotline and Editors 11-5-08

VA Suicide Hotline and Editors 11-5-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I have written about inner feelings of the returning Veteran many times but no one listens. My letter yesterday must have provoked something because my VA Psy called me. I thought that I had dreamed the letter. Then the phone woke me up and I wanted to remember the idea. It was a bad situation because of where I had been (in my mind) remembering Dr Dan’s call was like a dream. As I brought up the screen to write the letter “Yes I voted” came up. I called Dr Dan because my wife told me to before she left for work and I was not sure if I had just talked to him or not. Dr Dan told me how many copies of the letter he received that morning. It was incredible. People, VA hospitals and offices are some how receiving my letters and directing them to Dr Dan. May be some one should read them and learn what the U.S. is doing to veterans across the country. If the VA U.S. Government and editors are receiving my letters we must ask how can the system allow this to continue. I spent yesterday locked up in my home because the feelings of where I was just did not meet reality. I voted and for some reason walked up to the chief of Lee Police and told him “today was not the day that I would commit suicide. Reality, am I in the U.S. or still over there. The only great thing that I did while serving in the USMC was survive. Or did I?
I came with in a split second of running my car into a tree to kill my self today. I am sure many Editors and others are wishing me success. It is not for me that I tell you all these things in letters every day. It is for the United States of America. You all claim to want to help Veterans but you refuse to try to understand. We do not want your gratitude, praise or sympathy. We want you to correct the wrongs in government as our U.S. military give their lives for your freedom so you can speak freely to do so. Editors do not even respect the Veteran by printing the opinion of a Veteran. Do the Editors believe protecting society by censoring a veterans letters is the American Way? Are my letters so scary that the public should not be exposed to them. What about what the child goes though to become a Veteran. These facts are death and destruction, coupled with chaos, boredom and loneliness. We live this way knowing this is the last second of life every moment of the day. We do it for you. You do not even respect veteran’s enough to correct the wrongs in government. You allow the editors to cripple our free speech. You allow NH to jail a Veteran, U.S. Rep Shea-Porter to use a disabled Veteran’s service injuries, the VA to stop a disabled veteran’s medical care to stop his letters to the editor. The split second was not because of what NH is doing to me. It was because I was on convoy deep in the “Bush” and suicide because the world was like this. I have no memory of the U.S. I am living like this and it is the base of my belief that the world is like this. Conflict and war is how society is. I did not run the jeep into the tree because I want to see if the U.S. is as other Marine’s describe to me. Maybe some day I will see the U.S.
The Boston Globe, NH VA director and the governor tell me to commit suicide. The editors censor my words. Dr Dan receives my letters but puts them in a file. You missed the point of why returning Veteran’s some times do not fit into society. We came back to a place that we do not belong and you do not care enough to understand.
Have a nice veteran’s day
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi