Seacoast writers association 12-31-08

Seacoast writers association 12-31-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Seacoast writers Association (SWA) set annual competition. I want to make this a personal essay on ethics and responsibility. If I win donate your prize money to a local library for books to teach our children why this nation was created. Freedom on the Press was made a part of our Highest Law (Constitution) because of how important it is to allow the public to write opinion letters to expose government wrongs. This fact is documented in a letter by Thomas Jefferson “the basis of our government being the opinion of the people”. The SWA should be appalled by the facts editors censor or edit the opinion of the people to reflect the editor’s view.
I ran for election this past primary only to have the NH newspapers censor my opinion letters that informed the voters of my platform. The Newspapers went so far as to harm my character in the public eye to influence the vote. The newspapers had a grand time when NH declared me a terrorist and took my freedom for six months. These same newspapers did not allow my side to be told when the bogus charges were dropped. I volunteer my time to help a Madbury NH family that the town selectmen are abusing openly with the newspaper assumed consent. Judge Peter Fauver uses the power of the NH judicial branch to aid the selectmen in using government powers to inflict harm on this family. The NH supreme Court covered up the case when presented to them. The SWA should be wanting to teach with their annual event existing and future journalist ethics and responsibility. Every newspaper in the U.S. needs to understand the responsibility to print the opinion of the people. The truth is what matters.
I am a 100% disabled Veteran that volunteers my time not only to help this Madbury family but volunteers every day since 1974 to anyone in need. To stop me the NH governor uses the State and local police to harass me. Fauver uses the local sheriff to harass me. NH’s U.S. Rep files false criminal complaints to stop my censored opinion letters. She uses her federal powers to have a VA Dr file involuntary commitment orders to stop my censored opinion. The VA stops my medical care for combat related service connected disabilities. The newspapers still censor my opinion letters to the extent that ethics and responsibility are wave able unwritten rules.
I came back from a conflict in 74 with serious conditions. I kept to my self the silent demons that one day took over my life. The ethics and responsibility of the SWA to teach and reaffirm it’s members and the public is to help all Veteran’s past, present and future. You meaning the public can not grasp my question “am I really here”. I ask my self all the time am I dead in a benjo ditch dreaming of a world that I will never see or know. United States of America. Is this the H-ell that all Marine’s end in for what we do to protect and defend your freedom. The VA to stop my opinion letters stopped my medical for not only this but my other three disabilities also. My words are censored because the SWA has a “blue wall” making what our U.S. Military are fighting for to be in VAIN
I do not need to win a competition. What we the people must recognize is why our children are giving their lives on foreign soil this very day. Ethics and responsibility can only be learned from those that honor it. Honor our Veterans print the truth.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

VA criminal acts

VA criminal acts
I ask every one to The VA inspector general in DC and to Drs Potenza and Levenston at the Manchester NH VA hospital
Where does it end 12 230-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Yesterday was unique. I got several phone calls from people that read a letter of mine published in the Keene Free Press. I thank this newspaper. It was unique because these phone calls were from disabled people that never served in our military. I talked with these individuals only to realize that our society neglects many of them, so it is not just disabled Veterans suffering. I hope what I am doing will help all United States citizens not just the Veterans. How do you get society to respond to what is happening. People are afraid of government retaliation. The perfect example is this Madbury family that one Madbury selectmen did not like. The other selectmen helped this one use government powers for retaliation. Judge Peter Fauver used court powers to aid these selectmen and the NH supreme court covered the case up. The newspapers censor the truth and the public takes a blind eye for their own safety. This case is so well documented that government officials must violate our constitution to stop my free speech. The newspapers make the public scared of me to control public opinion.
The Veterans Administration stopped my medical care for combat related injuries to stop my free speech. NH’s US Rep used her federal powers to get a involuntary commitment order issued. She got to the police to arrested (detained) me. State and local police harass me to stop my opinion letters. Judge Fauver uses the local sheriff to attempt to intimidate me to stop my opinion letters. I have filed complaints, written charges and much more and our government officials each time commit more crimes to stop me. The newspapers censor my opinion letters so the public is isolated from the facts. I ran for elected state office this past primary. The newspapers harmed my character and censored my letters to interfere with the voters in this free election.
I am a 100% service connected disabled Veteran. Several are combat related. I write a letter every day. There is nothing libelous about my letters. Judge Fauver is a criminal that the judicial system is covering for. To allow the government to use a disabled veterans medical condition as a weapon to stop free speech (and no one cares) takes the cake. The uniqueness of yesterday was it is not just the returning veterans that are neglected. Our government has grown so powerful that elected officials mentally become a member of this club that uses the people. Most if not all have great intentions when elected but will soon learn one hand washes the other and if not the drain will soon in-gulf you. Just look at what the newspapers are censoring to blind you the people.
My medical was restored but to a limited level. Am I paranoid or just a returning veteran that does not belong. The sharp crippling pains are striking my head so I can not finish this letter if I want it to get off.
When the VA can openly aid criminal wrongs to stop a disabled Veteran by causing what I received defending this nation to flair up. Ask your self what about all of today’s returning veterans that will be swept under the rug by naïve elected officials. My case just illustrates what power can do to a disabled person. Or did I die and this is hell in a benjo ditch some where in theater? Reality is no more.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Strafford County Sheriff’s office 12-29-08

Strafford County Sheriff’s office 12-29-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Sheriff deputy Captain Joseph DiGegorio of Strafford County told me if I refer to Judge Peter Fauver as a criminal in my letters he would arrest me. The judge used the sheriff to harass me by arresting me to stop my opinion letters about this criminal judge. (Joe calls the arrest “detained”) Judge Fauver used the power of the NH court in allowing the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to seek and get revenge against local residents that the selectmen did not want in their town. The NH Supreme Court covered up the case. I volunteer my time to help this family and NH elected officials use the power of the state to attempt to scare me to stop exposing wrongs in government. These judges and government officials violated openly the constitution and the newspapers censor my opinion letters for some demented since that the editors are protecting people with good reputation. Print the truth and let the people decide. The facts are documented in the case that we presented to the NH supreme court.
NH US Rep used her political influence to have a involuntary commitment order to take my freedom to stop my letters. She filed a criminal complaint with the Dover NH police to get me arrested. The VA then stopped this 100% combat related disabled veterans medical care to stop my opinion letters. NH governor took my freedom on bogus terrorist charges. The list just goes on and on, so Joe don’t feel that you are the only one violating the people’s trust.
I was awake most of the night last night. My head was pounding, as the boy that was my first kill kept looking at me as he fell to the ground. I got out of bed as I felt blood gushing from my nose. My pride was driving me to run faster through the “Bush” after I took my M-16 back and escaped. I feel tired and lonely while sitting here writing this letter today. Joe told me during the detainment (arrest) that he has a friend at the sheriff’s office that was a Marine and he does not go through what I do. I am just looking for attention. I lived for over thirty years never talking about what is in my head. People around me can not accept what I have done. I was just a no-body until this family from Madbury NH out of the blue called me up for help. I did not know this family at the time but helping others is what US citizens should and must do. Joe has turned that around and uses the power of the Sheriff’s office to harass and intimidate as a way to make US citizens obey government orders. It is the same as Nazi Gestapo soldiers did once???
The newspapers have no reason not to print this opinion letter. If it is not true the people harmed have legal recourse against me. The truth will stand on it’s own. The truth is so well documented Gestapo acts must be taken on this US soil to stop this 100% disabled US Marine. Stopping my medical care only destroys my health not my will to protect and defend our Constitution.
Let’s start the new year 2009 telling the newspaper to print the opinion of the people unedited. Let us all recognize Freedom of the Press is to protect we the people not the newspapers. They have the power but this US Marine has the WILL.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

.Military Heart-Break 12-28-08

.Military Heart-Break 12-28-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
It is heart breaking that I received a email from the father of a child Veteran that returned from our most recent war disabled and can not get help. The father asked if he could reproduce my letters in his web site because they illustrated what his son was going through. These are children that we as the United States of America are taking from our ranks and sending off to war. These are the children that once grew up in our homes and neighborhoods that go off to defend and protect our way of life. These are the US Military Veterans that return and receive less than equal protection of the law and government services. We ask for nothing because it is our belief that we do not belong for the destructive way of life that now marks our path. I tell every one that reads my letters to send them to all the newspapers, government officials and ask your friends to do the same. My letters are not for me. My letters are to express opinion that we your children gave our lives for a Constitution that you the US public is neglecting to take care of now. My letters are for those now returning Veterans and the future.
Our elected officials do squat but tell the public how great their actions are to help Veteran’s. My VA medical was stopped to stop my writing letters to the editors. NH elected officials talked to VA officials to get them reinstated. One, it is against the law to stop a Combat related disabled Veteran’s medical as a weapon to stop his letters. Two, my medical was restarted but it is sub-standard and limited. I get sharp pains at any moment that last a few seconds or minutes, throbbing pressure in my head and then my nose bursts into a blood bath. My broken back can give me so much pain just from turning the wrong way. I can only hear 50% of what people are saying to me from being blown off the runway during a Vietnam offensive. I refuse to take medication but the pain got so bad and I ran out of pills that I received 5 years earlier that I asked the VA to refill them. That was two months ago. No pills. I receive token visits to the VA to demonstrate for the record that care is given. Our elected officials take credit for getting my health care started again. Our government is We the People, but what happen?
I wrote a opinion letter telling the world that Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal. Fauver with court powers allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to seek and get revenge against local residents. The NH government has violated the constitution to inflict pain and suffering to stop me. The NH supreme court covered up the case when presented to them.
I am the 100% disabled Veteran that was put in jail by NH to shut me up. You question the Veteran’s that the demons of war do not show up for years after as lazy and useless people. The Veteran that left your warm, cozy home will never come home. You the American public must accept even though that you will never understand. We the U.S. Military Veteran are citizens also. It is heart breaking when ever you leave a Veteran homeless on the street, put us in jail for our uncivilized actions or limit or reject our medical care. The most heart breaking part is the all newspapers censor a Veteran letters. What would you say is heart breaking??????
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi

Killing in a civilized society 12-27-08

Killing in a civilized society 12-27-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I read the story in NH’s largest newspaper today about the Demer’s family. The story struck me personally because it actually illustrated the meaning (that our military get) is some how created with in those that serve. Our Constitution calls for We the People to “take up arms and abolish” when all other means of “Redress is ineffectual”. Is this not what our Forefather’s did when our nation first started? Ask why the newspapers have censored my opinion letters. The meaning of the United States is where our government serves the people. I am a 100% service combat related disabled Veteran. I have written complaints and official charges stating and documenting criminal acts committed by judges and elected officials in NH. My complaints and charges have been ignored by the Veteran’s administration and other government officials. These authority figures have gone so far as to use retribution in an official capacity to stop me. I have violated no laws. I volunteer every day to help others. I have four life changing permanent disabilities. I served as a U.S. Marine during the Vietnam Conflict. These criminal acts happen to many returning Veterans and this is why I am so persistent. Veterans are not asking for any special treatment just equal protection of the law.
No body wants to try to understand that returning veterans are different. Not all are effected so deeply that they can’t suppress it. We all have that inner feeling that only those that served seem to have about the U.S. Adjusting to society is not always possible. Things back here to some, just do not make since. Imagine being in a place you want to belong but nothing is reality. We become homeless and discarded on the street. We become criminals because society sees what we do infringes on their comfort and expenses. (Tax Dollars) My VA medical was stopped, I was put in jail, I was declared a terrorist, State and local police harass my family, Judge Peter Fauver uses the sheriff’s office to arrest me for harassment (detain me) and much more. I ran for elected state office this past primary only to have the newspapers intentionally cripple my campaign. No body wants to understand and NH’s largest newspaper censors the truth.
My entire life that I remember has gone to helping others. I volunteer because I need to thank those that served our country. I volunteer because it is my only way to accept that I do not belong back here. I do not want your thanks or pity. I want you to realize that allowing a criminal like Judge Peter Fauver to intentionally use court powers to intentionally harm US citizens can not be allowed under any conditions. To allow the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers for personal revenge can not be allowed under any conditions. To allow government retribution against a 100% disabled veteran to stop free speech can never be allowed under any conditions. To allow the newspapers to censor the opinion of the people for any reason can never be allowed under any conditions. The Demer’s family members kill on foreign soil yet when they return will not have equal protection in the US for what they did. Reporter Kepple most likely does not even realize the deep meaning his story meant to me and other Veteran‘s..
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi

Response to NH elected officials.12-26-08

Response to NH elected officials.12-26-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
NH elected officials email me constantly. They wish me well for the Christmas Day and the New Year. These are great individuals in a position of authority to help make our State and Country a better place for all. I like these people and consider them my friends even though I am sure some don’t consider me one. I question publicly these individuals when they do some thing that I disagree with. Some (not many) take offense to questioning publicly what they are doing. I have asked many times under the individuals Constitutional rights a “redress of grievances”. This is guaranteed in our Constitution as a means for the people to correct the wrongs in government. Our NH elected officials refuse to allow me this guaranteed right. We have a new government starting in January, will this bring change for the people. Will the full house invite me to speak publicly to inform our NH state government what is happening to the people that they represent. Governor Lynch is most likely sheltered from what I am saying. I have met the governor over six times and each time we have a nice talk and he invites me to the capital to speak further with him. I call to make the appointment and it is never made. Are our NH elected officials so afraid to work for the people that they commit crimes.
The newspapers censor my letters to the public so our elected officials feel save in diminishing the people’s constitutional rights. These same officials do not realize the number of blogs and individuals that read my letters on the web every day. The newspapers call my letters libelous but these are public documents that I send to thousands of judges, government officials, newspapers, courts and the public. There is nothing libelous about my letters. The truth will conquer as I am so persistent that I will not stop representing what is guaranteed under our Constitution. This past primary the newspapers interfered with a free election when I ran for state office. The people of the state of NH are kept in the dark because I am a no-body. The person that won the position I ran for is a great person and will go a great job, but my point is that it should have been the informed voters choice not the editors. The newspapers believe censoring my letters is protecting our state. It is violating the meaning of “Freedom of the Press”.
Our NH US Rep. Shea-Porter filed a false police criminal complaint to stop my letter to the editor. When this failed she used her federal powers to have the VA use my medical disabilities to stop me. When this failed the VA stopped my medical care. Are my words so revealing that government officials are allowed to violate laws and our Constitution to shut me up. These are crimes against the people of the United States that no one in a position of authority will do any thing to stop because the news media has taken a biased position to protect and serve criminal government officials.
The major problem for these criminal editors and government officials is every thing that I am saying is documented in court and government records. You are only hurting yourself by not stopping these crimes against the people. The pain and anguish inflict on me is ok because I am a United States Marine and it is our job to protect and defend our Constitution while suffering. This is why I ask the NH elected officials to do their jobs and allow me to speak in front of the full house and senate. Lets do the right thing and work for the people. I will email this to the NH elected officials, will the newspapers have the Balls to publish this letter in the papers?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Christmas Day 12-25-08

Christmas Day 12-25-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Christmas Day the worst two weeks every year for me then the day comes and another year starts and my loneliness and deep hole seems to just be remembering what I did. The lack of guilt that society says that any human being would feel for the things that I believe that I have done. This is the best day of the year for me because my family and I make it a special day. My three daughters are now grown and completing their Masters degrees this year, but they still come home. Christmas is a day that is memorable to them because we (as a family) have always made it, of sharing and giving. We have now expanded into their boy friends being part of this day. I have nothing to be sorry for on this special day. I do not know why the worst comes out during these weeks leading up to this day. I look and act so normal yet the conflicts and miss understandings of what is going on around me becomes inclusive. Can you live in and out of two worlds with out letting the other know. Can you try to be normal in this difficult society by camouflaging that you do not belong because you have no memory of how to belong. I know that at some point during the day my memory of being their will rage into believing some day “Peace” will be every where and harmony will be for all. I, yes this Marine will have a tear drop slowly slide down my face as I feel the loneliness of every deployed U.S. Military person on this special day of the year.
The most memorable part of this year was just a couple weeks ago when I read the story of how Jackson NH as a Village gives to two injured Veteran’s and their families. The good is all around us, we just need to see it. I make a point each day to see and dwell on the good that I see and feel. I do this by volunteering to help others. This is how I justify what We (our military) do, is worth the time and effort. We now as a society must be willing to correct the wrong in government with out the fear of reprisal. No matter how much hard ship, pain and suffering the NH or US government places on us we must always place the United States of America first. Jackson NH came together as one to give. It was as during WWII the U.S. came together as one to protect and defend our nation. I am a 100% disabled veteran that writes a letter every day that the newspapers censor. I am that person that causes pain because I believe in the United States. I live through the worst two weeks every year to repel the criminal hardships the NH governor will place on my family. NH elected officials have chosen to protect and cover up Judge Peter Fauver’s criminal use of the courts. Fauver use court powers to enable the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to get revenge on a local family the selectmen did not like. I volunteer my time to help this family and NH declared me a terrorist under the patriot act and took my freedom before dropping the bogus charges. Then the VA stopped my medical care for combat related injuries. My worst days of the year will mean nothing if we as a nation do not come together and make the newspapers print the truth. Publish the uncensored letters of a 100% disabled veteran and all the other letters from US citizens. Freedom of the Press is for We the People’s protection.
Freedom of the Press means nothing if only one side is freely printed. Freedom is why the Jackson NH story became so memorable to this 100% disabled Veteran. US citizens willing to give to make life better for others. Thank You America.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

You have no Idea 12 23-08-pm

You have no Idea 12 23-08-pm
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
You have no idea what goes through my mind in a flash at the worst or most inconvenient time. The rush to just want to die. To kill myself to end the feelings of why? To attempt understand reality. The miss understandings of why I came back. Is this real? While serving in the Marine Corps nothing made since but the act to attempt to live to see the next day and be alive. To see a world that I had no memory of ever seeing before. The United States. I do not belong in a civilized society because I killed with a bayonet to get my M-16 back and escape. I was proud to have passed the final test to be called a US Marine. Now everyone that finds out calls me a baby killer. I could justify what I was doing by believing that every one followed orders. I came back to a world that I had no idea of. No one believed that my situation was real. Doubt and miss trust was all over the place with every one that I met. I was, am considered paranoid. I am in a world that I do not belong. I am traveling down in a deep hole while at the same time seeing what I have done evolve around me. Situations are thrown at me, but they are inconsistent and conflict with the meaning of what I thought that I understood from learning from others. People tell me to write on Blogs and send letters on the Web. Others tell me to get off the public blogs that I do not belong. VA Dr’s tell me that that my medical condition is not real. Others tell me my symptoms are wrong for what I am claiming. People tell me opinion letters are an important part of being a civilian and a part of the newspapers, yet mine are disbelieved but true. People are instructed to follow the law, yet some special class of people do not have to. Judge’s violate the Constitution and the NH Supreme Court approves it. I keep asking if this is eternity for a U.S. Marine to dream conflicting thoughts while my body becomes permanently lost in a benjo ditch in south east Asia.

12-24-08 This is one situation that I go through every day. I wrote this first Paragraph out while it was occurring last night. You (the Public) can label me what ever adjectives that you want. My medical condition is what happens to those willing to go off to protect and defend a Constitution. A Constitution that You (the Public) deny Veteran’s the right to be protect by. I have times when I am just like the rest of you interacting with others. I have violated no laws and I volunteer every day to help others. What makes me different from others is my medical conditions. This is not unique to me though. There are many Veterans going through worse than I. We had no right to come home to a world that does not want to accept what we became and that we do not belong.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Holiday letters to Military12-23-08

Holiday letters to Military12-23-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I am touched. A teacher is awarded with front page coverage of her students writing letters to Disabled U.S. Military hospital patients. This story deserves credit but the more important issue is the reason that these “Now” Veterans became disabled and are in the hospital. The newspapers tell you how great things are but what about why? Did the newspapers tell you that they censor opinion letters that do not reflect what the editors want you to know. I am touched that the newspapers do not think that telling the citizens of the U.S. that a 100% disabled veterans medical was stopped, to stop the opinion letters written by this veteran. The editors do not agree with what I say so the public is deprived of the information. Both sides of the news is not told if it does not say what the editors want the public to know. I dare tell the true facts about government wrongs that question the character of people with power. The truth is the most powerful weapon and eventually it will conquer and be told. Teaches recognizing the loneliness of disabled military in the hospital during this time of year, deserves praise. It is the meaning why that must be taught to all students. Our military became disabled because they were fighting for “to protect and defend our Constitution”. You will be touched if these Constitutional Rights are lost. Don’t let the editors censor the people’s opinion.
Do I repeat the facts to often. No! because if Judge Peter Fauver is allowed to criminally violate the constitution there is no United States. Fauver used the court powers to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to seek and get revenge for personal reasons with miss use of government powers. I volunteer my time to help this family because they asked me for help. I met this family because they read a opinion letter that I wrote. The NH supreme court covered up the case when it was presented to them. Our NH elected officials not only refuse to help a Voter and US citizen but allow government powers to inflict pain and suffering on a 100% disabled veteran to stop me. No NH elected official will help me. Thank You United States of America from a 100% disabled Veteran?
I did not write a letter yesterday because I was volunteering to help others. I volunteer every single day. I do not want your thanks or any thing else from you. What I do need is your help to expose that the newspapers are censoring opinion letters that expose government wrongs. Censorship hurts even these disabled Veterans.
I want teachers to teach why our U.S. Military become disabled to be the front page news. I want the United States of America to understand we gave our lives for the equal treatment of justice and government services for all not just the chosen few. Send our disabled Veterans in the hospital letters telling them we understand why they did it. Make them feel proud for why they will never have the normal life that you do.
I am touched?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Jackson NH - injured Veteran’s heroes

Jackson NH - injured Veteran’s heroes
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls Rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
It is a time of year for memories and that is what Jackson NH is doing not just for these two families but for all to see and hear about. I read the story of how this small town decided to give a gift to two injured veterans and their families. The entire town is participating in making the United States a home for all. Granted it is only two families but these two families represent all of use. To me the US is one family. We help each other in times of need and together make times of joy. This one town is saying what we all feel, but do not know how to show it. We need to volunteer our time, with just a open hand. We need to learn once again how to accept a friendly hello as only that. We need to forget the hidden agenda and accept that a person can volunteer to help someone with out wanting something in return. Memories are made from these times when an entire village can give to two injured veteran’s families but the joy is received by all whom hear about it. Jackson NH is representing all of us with this kind hand of joy.
It has been a hard year for many and some think investigating why Public service may have done something wrong during the power outages is necessary. Every one wants to investigate and waste when giving can be so much more rewarding. If every one could just open up their hands and hearts to make life better for others, a self joy will just grow. Memories will be made and your young, will see joy where it may not have been in your life’s before. Veterans are all around you. We are you. These are the citizens that gave so that your memories could freely be made with out question. Veterans do not want anything from you except not to have what we gave for to be forgotten. “Constitution”
In my eyes all Veterans are heroes. I feel a joy for what Jackson NH is doing. An entire town opened a hand to two injured Veteran’s and their families. I don’t feel joy because these are veterans but because it is unity and self sacrifice for others. All Veterans are heroes to me and deserve the “world”. I am not one of them (a Hero). I am that crazy 100% disabled Veteran that writes letters every day. I am that person that believes open communication is better than conflict in a civilized society. I am that crazy US citizen that volunteers every day to help others.
Jackson NH opened a joy in my heart that makes what I did seem worth it. The Memory of what Jackson NH did will all ways be with me. Jackson NH is a Hero to me.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

US Military Christmas 12-18-08

US Military Christmas 12-18-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 02824 603-659-6217
I do not remember much of yesterday. I helped a friend fix his broken trucks and snow plows. It was like I was in a repair shed on some isolated base fixing aircraft recovery gear. The day was long and cumbersome, as is every day. I would see or hear something about Christmas being just around the corner and a deep loneliness would take over my body. Dreams of seeing someone “round eyed girl” that wrote me letters every day or wake up in a house with a real bed. The wishes and wants would be so deep, yet the loud noises of the jets being launched or stopped would bring me back to reality. A single sniper shot rings in a distance to put the convoy’s attention to the thought of death. For the entire year I do not remember what Christmas is like the year before. Each year I camouflage the loneliness as not to ruin others belief’s, but my memory takes me back through every one since then during this week. I do not remember the events just the years of loneliness and isolation when so much is around me to remember during the Christmas season.
I write letters. My letters supposedly are read by many, many people. Reality is that no one exists because nothing changes. There are no people in white hats that stop the criminals in black caps. We have no Constitution that protect the people from government wrongs. Our society is not equal protection of the law for everyone because elected officials have to much power. Cop killers get the death sentence while criminal judges, government officials and cops get a slap on the writ. Prosecutors violate the Constitution with the judges permission because the courts are biased and believe the defendant is guilty so what is the harm. The newspapers tarnish the character of innocent people to help make society agree with wrongful government actions. It just depends on whom you know. I write these letters home because they allow me to live in a dream world that does not exist where I am at.
My letters are this Marine’s way of telling the world enough is enough. If judge Peter Fauver committed crimes against the people he must be stopped. The Madbury NH selectmen used government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents for personal reasons. The VA stopped my medical care. NH locked me up as a terrorist in jail. I am 100% disabled! Do I exist? I have volunteered to help fellow Marines out because someone has to care. I believe that I volunteer to help other U.S. citizens out every day because I want to believe that what so many died fighting for, (OUR FREEDOM) will not be in VAIN. I do not remember because I have no idea if this night mare will ever end. I have violated no laws. My only shame in life is the loneliness that I remember during this joyous time of year.
I HOPE AND PRAY THAT THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA DOES EXIST AND SOME DAY I GET TO COME HOME TO HER.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Veteran’s World 12-17-08

Veteran’s World 12-17-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
What do you do when you REACH and there is nothing to reach for? When some one yells for help in the woods and no one is around, is any noise made? Veterans across the United States stay silent because we have nothing to reach or yell for. We are stereo typed by history to silence to protect the innocent that we did it for, from what we did for them! Society shows respect for veterans but fails to allow the veteran’s reach to touch. The Veteran’s reach is left in the air not for punishment or disrespect but because eighty nine percent can not grasp the demented experiences of a Veteran. Society trains doctors and councilor’s but training only touches the air after the Veteran’s reach pasted. Education and training can not reach the enormous difficulties brought on by the silent demons experience built. What is left but to reach for that eternal light.
Words of wisdom from a Veteran labeled with a mental disorder that allows society to neglect and isolate him. Society allows the VA to stop my medical to teach me that the freedom that Veteran’s gave for is not for veterans. This Veteran’s medical care is only allowed if this veteran does not write opinion letters. The person in charge of the NH veterans administration is allowed to tell this veteran to commit suicide or take mind altering drugs. This veteran’s medical is restarted but limited and sub-standard. A clear and documented record of all these criminal acts exist and yet no one speaks. Laws are violated and no one will answer this veteran’s reach as he yells with no sound.
I have violated no laws and I volunteer every day to help others. This loss of freedom started when a Madbury family out of the blue called me in Lee for help. Judge Peter Fauver used the power of the courts to aid government abuse. The Madbury NH selectmen use government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen do not like. The NH supreme court covered up the case. I volunteer my time because US citizens must help other’s stop government abuse against any citizen.
The Foster’s daily Democrat has mocked me and labeled me, to in able the public to reject me. The NH governor labeled me a terrorist and took my freedom for 6 months under the Patriot Act. The bogus charges were eventually dropped. The State and local police harass my family. Judge Fauver uses the Sheriff to arrest (detain) me to stop my letters. Yet I continue to write letters every day because my comfort does not matter when I see what Veterans over the history of the US gave be lost in vain.
We have built a nation of “Blue Walls”. Each group protect their own out of loyalty to their group. If you fail to belong you are left to reach for nothing. The ethical belief of printing the truth no longer exists. The opinion of the people is selected to reach only those whom speak the same opinion.
I did not sleep last night as many nights in the past. I traveled (in my mind) to some place you as a society do not want to reach for. I am nothing special. There are many veterans that have reached over the history of this nation for help with nothing to touch or hear our REACH.
A VETERAN’S OPINION IS CENSORED FROM EVERY NEWSPAPER ACROSS THE UNITED STATES BECAUSE SOCIETY CAN NOT ACCEPT THAT A VETERAN WOULD REACH FOR SOMETHING SO SIMPLE AS HELP.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Newspapers talk 12-16-08

Newspapers talk 12-16-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Newspapers print some of the most useless articles when so much other is happening that effects every US citizen. The Newspapers Print letters to the editor that complain about how during this natural disaster people help each other. Letters about pets and complaints against a society for not giving someone something. Volunteering is my way of life. I help others every day since 1974 when I came back from a conflict. The other day someone complained about how a 100% disabled veteran could volunteer to help others so much. The answer is that I tolerate the pain. Excepting the episodes of reliving things and place most people (luckily) will never have to experience (a conflict). Not remembering my own child’s name. Forgetting where I am. I accept what has been handed down to me because I was lucky enough to come back alive. Now the question is? Reality did I ever come back or is this my punishment for doing what I did as a US Marine? Am I still over there dreaming of what it is like back here. Every one should volunteer and the newspapers should promote it. Volunteering is help to make life better.
We have laws and a Constitution that the State of New Hampshire has violated to inflict pain and suffering on a 100% disabled Veteran. The VA has accepted this punishment being dealt to a 100% disabled veteran. The VA has helped the State of NH by stopping this Veteran’s medical care for service related injuries. The newspapers not only refuse to print the facts, they refuse to print the opinion letters of this 100% disabled Veteran. The VA restarted my medical to fix the books so that no one believes my medical was stopped. My medical is now sub-standard. Society has cast me aside as a mental case which if I am, it is because I gave my life to keep society free. The VA went so far as to tell this 100% disabled Veteran to commit suicide or take drugs. The newspapers have separated this veteran as if I have a contagious incurable disease. What is Freedom of the Press? Why has this Veteran’s Constitutional Rights been stopped?
I volunteered my time to help a Madbury NH family that asked. Judge Peter Fauver used the courts and laws to inflict pain and harm on this family. The Madbury NH selectmen use government powers to seek and get revenge on this family for personal reasons. The Constitution was written to stop just such criminal acts by the courts and government. The NH Supreme Court covered up this case.
These crimes effect every US citizen. Returning Veterans even today are being denied. This is not just me. It is every citizen of the US including people that work for and own the newspapers. You (meaning society) are not just cutting my throat, You are cutting your own and do not even know it.
Every one of you should be asking how a 100% disabled Veteran can write such a letter and it is not printed on the front page of every US newspaper. I can write such a libelous letter because the truth will stand on it’s own. This letter would only be libelous if it were not the truth. If you do not believe this letter and all my letters are the truth then “Ask why they can not stop my letters”. These people are afraid of the truth coming out.
The truth how NH destroyed a 100% disabled Veteran will some day be told.
The truth about how the citizens of the US knowingly allowed this will be known.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi
PS every one can help by asking your newspaper why they censor a Veteran’s letters asking for help?

United States What happen? 12-15-08

United States What happen? 12-15-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
What ever happen to the U.S.A the nation where the people could and were encouraged to speak the truth. Express the opinion of the people with freedom of speech so that no idea was deprived by government interference and government wrongs could be expressed freely so the public could correct them. What ever happen to newspapers trying to get the scoop and openly informing the world no matter which people with power that the truth may harm. Ethics and Moral Responsibility no longer matter in the U.S. The idea’s and lessons that I learned as a U.S. Marine wanting to some day have a chance to live where only ones laziness or criminal acts could stop self improvement and a better life for all (the US). I was a US Marine surviving in a combat zone with no memory of life prior to being shipped overseas. Is history wrong and this land of the people, never really existed. I am a 100% disabled veteran that is confused and some how caught in a world that I do not belong. What ever happen. But why did it happen?
I have violated no laws. As a matter of facts not breaking a law is my primary function because of what and whom I am. I have volunteered every day to help others since I returned in seventy four. Public elected officials across NH and the US encourage me to continue but just don’t use their names. I write this letter because a few minutes ago in Durham NH several individuals separately came up to me at different times asking where I have been and why I no longer write letters to the editor in the newspapers. I had not seen these people in several (if not longer) years ( I did not even know whom they were) but they knew me. My volunteering has helped a great number of people in the 30 plus years. So why has the editor’s labeled me and cast me to the dogs. The editor’s are trying to hang on to a section of readers; not realizing it is the entire U.S. that we must think of as one. What happens to me, effects every one of each newspaper’s readers. The editors may not like it that I have taken on judges, government officials and others with out fear or hesitation. There can be no doubt in anyone’s mind about placing the welfare of the U.S. first and fore most. I am a United States Marine that believe in the United States of America. The U.S. has turned it’s back on me, but I believe in her.
The editor’s cover the facts that the VA stopped my VA medical. They cover the facts of the criminal acts committed by people with power. Judge Peter Fauver used the powers of the court to criminally violate the constitution to harm other US citizens. Fauver allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen do not like. The NH supreme court covered up the case. NH elected officials allowed an innocent citizens to be locked up as a terrorist when no crime was committed, as a weapon to scare any one from helping him.
Every citizen reading this letter should ask every newspaper why it is not printed. Whom is the editors protecting. The editors are hurting every United States Citizen. What happen can only be changed by you.
I am in such pain and turmoil that I hope the end is near, but I will continue to volunteer to help others because not to volunteer is to accept they win.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Good And Bad Opinion Letters 12-11-08

Good And Bad Opinion Letters 12-11-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I never dreamed of being stripped of my Constitutional rights in front of the public and this crime is accepted. My spelling, grammar and other parts of my opinion letters may be questionable but the facts stated are all totally true. I am a 100% service connected disabled Veteran. I have placed written complaints daily to the eyes of judges, elected public officials, VA, newspapers and many more. I sent a letter to President elect Obama’s VA secretary General Shinseki. These are opinion letters stating crimes by judges and government officials to harm a 100% disabled Veteran and nothing is done. The Editors of almost every newspaper in the nation have refused to print my letters. It is like the people of the US are telling me to go back, that I am some place that I do not belong. I volunteer every day to help other people as I will today. I have violated no laws. Is it right for the entire US to discriminate against one individual. Why have the editors violated openly the moral and ethical responsibly to print the truth.
The VA stopped my medical care. This is a crime. It was restarted but it is now limited and sub-standard. NH Governor Lynch refuses to talk to a voter, and uses the state police to harass my family. Judge Fauver uses the Sheriff dept to harass me. I have been arrested on false charges. NH took my freedom for six months. I ran for elected public office and the newspapers slammed my character to discourage the voters from voting for me. This all sounds to outrageous to be true. Judge Peter Fauver used court powers to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to commit crimes against local residents. These selectmen used government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen did not like. The NH supreme court covered up the case when it was present to them. I have publicly stated these facts many times in public and court documents what is reality? I volunteered to help these US citizens from Madbury NH. These powerful government officials violate the law to cover up these crimes against the people. The public is so afraid of these powerful people they silently support me but will do nothing
I have told you many times that I am 100% disabled. I did many (what you the public would say are) deplorable things while I served. Each time I would tell my self this is a test to see if I am a US Marine. I would be TAD on a moments notice and only my OIC would be aware. I was a 17 year old kid with no memory from TBI. Is this now a test to see if I qualify to be a US citizen.? What is reality? Am I still in a benjo ditch dreaming of a nation that I have no memory of? I now struggle every day to get out of the house and help people in need. It is getting harder and harder. It is like my mind more and more is back on Convoy. It is like reliving where I felt that I belonged. This could be a dream that I came back alive. Maybe I have no Constitutional rights because where I am the only right is the chance to survive. Reality! is that this is a dream and it must end. If this is reality why have the newspapers discriminated against a 100% disabled US Marine and the public accepts it?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

To General Shinseki A public letter 12-10-08

To General Shinseki A public letter 12-10-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
The US Military personnel’s welfare after battle takes top priority. To allow any one veteran to go unnoticed on the street is to much. I receive letters, phone calls and emails every day from other veterans being neglected because of loop holes in the VA Programs. Not one person whom served in our military should be neglected for any reason. You as a General must realize this. The Men under your command all ways come first. This is the way as a Sgt my platoon could always depend on me.
I have sent written complaints to the VA and other government agencies over the past years. I am a 100% disabled Veteran. US Rep Shea-Porter used her federal powers to attempt to use my medical conditions as a weapon to stop my opinion letter. She had a Dr Biswas from the Manchester NH VAH file involuntary commitment orders to take my freedom. When this failed she filed false police complaints to get me arrested. The VA in NH then stopped my medical care. The VA director in NH told me to commit suicide if I refuse to be controlled by drugs. My complaints are all documented in the records yet not one complaint has been resolved. My medical has been restored but it is now sub-standard and limited. This letter is not about me. This letter is about all the other Veterans being neglected by a system that does not care.
My problems with the VA started because I volunteer to help others in the state of NH. Judge Peter Fauver used judicial powers to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen do not like. This family asked me a high school drop out for help because of an opinion letter that I wrote. I volunteered my time. To stop me NH declared me a terrorist under the patriot act and took my freedom. The bogus charges were dropped after six months. NH uses the law enforcement State and local to harass my family to stop me. Fauver uses the local sheriff whom assigned a Captain to develop a case against me. I refuse to stop because I am a Sgt in the US Marine Corps. Our country always comes first. The United States of America. No person in the US should have medical care denied as a weapon of power.
Some day the newspapers will realize the truth and print my letters to let the people of the US know. The truth is a powerful weapon. We as US Military Veterans gave so that Freedom of the Press could remain as a weapon to expose government wrongs. The NH newspapers are so biased that they interfered with my campaign for NH state elected office. The newspapers refuse to print the opinion letters of a 100% disabled Veteran. People in power in NH are for some reason afraid of the judicial branch of government. Marines have stood alone in battle before and I will not stop until our nation is made aware of what NH has induced the VA to do to a 100% disabled Veteran. My case illustrates wrongs because the evidence is so well documented in my case but what they are doing to me is done to others in far worse condition than me.
If you Eric Shinseki want to be in charge of Veterans across this great nation helping all weather you like us or not is the key to being successful.
I question if you will even acknowledge receiving my letter. Maybe some newspapers will print this letter to make the US aware of neglected Veterans.
May God Bless America!
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

500MG pain killers 12-8-08

500MG pain killers 12-8-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
My wife and I just left the VA clinic in Somersworth NH. As crowed as it was the Drs and the Staff made the wait as friendly and convent as possible for every one on a individual feeling. I noticed the poster on the wall about Veteran’s in Crisis” It said that it takes a warrior to ask for help. I saw Dr Dan for a split second while waiting. He whispered in my ear that he read my letter yesterday. I had no idea what he was talking about because I was in so much pain that I did not think that I wrote one. I just finished reading the letter a minute ago. This is a pretty good letter. You (meaning every US citizen) should be asking themselves why this letter is not in every US paper. I was at the clinic because I found a four year old prescription from the VA for 500MG pain killers for my back. It only had one pill left so I wanted it refilled to help with the pain. I refuse to take medication unless it is the only way.
I read in the newspapers all the time about how the VA is expanding and helping veterans. The people of the US believe veterans are so well treated that no response opinion letters need to be printed. This is not the case. Veterans do receive great treatment if you are the lucky one. Some Veterans are swept under the rug by the administration if at all possible. Selecting whom gets treatment if it meets the budget is rampart at the VA. Veterans are refused care as leverage to get people to complaint to elected officials to get bigger budgets. Elected officials only care about veterans when they can promote themselves to get elected. My opinion letters are so straight forward and factual that they scare the newspapers. Editors censor my opinion letters daily.
I am a 100% disabled Veteran. I was injured three times while I served. Two are combat related from separate missions. A few years back the VA diagnosed me with PTSD. A fourth permanent disability. I have for over thirty years wanted to die for (what you call wrongs) what I did to be a member of this civilized society. The VA stopped my medical care for over six months. Dr Dan stuck his neck out to help me during this period going against VA policy. I thank Dr Dan for this help. My point is that my medical was stopped to help the NH government to get me to stop writing opinion letters. The newspapers refuse to print them any way. My letters tell how Judge Peter Fauver committed crimes against our constitution to help the Madbury NH selectmen use government power for personal revenge against local residents. My question is why are the Newspapers and government officials protecting this person. Why has the US allowed the government to use my medical care to stop me.
I can not remember things, while other memories I can not forget. I write great letters yet I do not remember a lot of them. My letters are completely the truth yet the newspapers censor them. Dr Dan and 2800 others get my letters every day, yet no one does anything. VA officials allow my medical care to be used as a weapon, yet no one stops these criminals. I want to talk a few seconds about my feeling.
This feeling comes at any time. I can be driving down the street, walking or watching TV. I feel like my head is caving in and my mind is sinking to no where. I feel hopeless and eternal. This statement does not make since yet I want to die so bad. I have felt this way after every trip in my mind back where no one should have ever gone. VA doctors tell me that my description of my medical conditions does not meet what they believe. I crashed landed in a C-117, I was blown off a runway, I broke my back during one offensive and I lost most of my hearing from another one. I killed a child in hand to hand combat to get my M16 back and escape. I have traveled through the “Bush” alone and had sniper fire travel inches from my head. I am a United States Marine that survived when I should not have.
It does not take a warrior to ask for help. It takes a fool to believe in a system that can not accept what a Veteran is. You have no idea what it is like to know this is the last second of your life every single moment of every single day. You have no idea, to know what it is like to become complacent with death every moment. Can you imagine coming back after living this way for years You have no idea how guilty this civilized society makes some one feel because this Marine is proud of his first kill.
Elected officials and some veterans tell me that veteran’s that were there do not talk about it. I have no memory of my child hood from TBI. I wonder if that screw me up or coming back to a “world” US that does not want veterans like me, did it.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Veteran Today In Pain. 12 7-08

Veteran Today In Pain. 12 7-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Pain! You can not believe what it is like. Don’t give me your pity or feel sorry for me. There are a lot of other Veterans in worse pain or less in life than me. I watched a news broadcast of a Veteran that returned disabled from (IED and PTSD suffering with poor to no medical care because of the VA protocol) Iraq. The Ropes and Hoops veterans are put through to get help. Every day I hear or witness horrific displays of neglect or abuse of veterans by the US government and VA. The VA is made up of very caring Dr’s and staff but the administration and elected officials worry about pet projects rather than veteran care. Meet the Budget (for the officials self benefits) before helping Veterans. This is how our elected officials and VA think. I honestly believe that the Veterans Today Magazine was going to print my letters to allow others to witness what is happening. They censored me after a few months. This is ok because my letters are published on many other Blogs and sites. The People are learning the truth, just slower. Newspapers believe that they are doing the public a service by censoring my letters. The opinion of the people is what we became disabled veterans to protect. There can be no libel the editors (by printing my letters) to claim because “Truth is a powerful weapon”
NH elected officials violated the law by interfering with my disabilities that I received defending this nation. The VA stopped my medical care to help the NH elected officials to stop my opinion letters. Judge Peter Fauver used the Law and courts to help the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to harm citizens the selectmen did not like. I volunteer my time to help this family because it is every US citizens responsibility to stop (acts of revenge) government officials from using the law to harm other citizens. No matter what they do to me I can and will not stop until people take notice. What the Madbury NH selectmen are doing can not be tolerated (harming)in the US. Judges and government officials using a disabled Veteran’s (Military received) medical condition to stop the opinion of the people from being printed in letters to the editor goes beyond comprehension.
My pain and medical condition was in such condition yesterday that I could not get out of bed. I do not want your sympathy or pity. You the American People are allowing these deplorable situation to continue. My situation does not matter compared to what you are letting so few do to a nation that was saved and build on the back of our U.S. Military giving their lives for. Do you know why I can use names in my letters because these criminal judges and government officials can not allow what they have done to become public. The Editors are to afraid of these powerful officials that they refuse to stick their necks out for fear of retribution so they refuse to print the truth..
We live in a nation where the Opinion of the People is considered an important part of our government growth. We live in a nation where the government is meant to serve the people not master the people. We live in a nation where newspapers are given constitutional protection “Freedom of the Press” as a checks and balance to keep the US government from committing wrongs to harm the people.
What Happen. I wish that I could have gotten out of bed yesterday because it would have been my last act to end the pain. All the pain, for ever.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Make People Read Letters 12-5-08

Make People Read Letters 12-5-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Put it in writing. Let the People Know. We have laws. Justice is equal for all US citizens. Discrimination is against the law. A persons medical condition can not be used as a weapon against them. Discrimination of medical services to knowingly inflict pain and suffering can not be allowed. Newspapers can not be allowed to censor the opinion of the people to protect government wrongs from being exposed. The average US citizen can not be made to be scared of government services for fear of retribution if they ask the wrong question. The Veterans Administration has committed every one of these crimes against a 100% disabled Veteran. I (this Veteran) have put it in writing and mailed my letters to over 2800 government and other persons and the crimes continue to mount. I put it in writing every day. You stopped my medical care to stop me from writing letters exposing the wrongs in government. No one will lift a finger to help me. Don’t even think of giving my your pity. I do not want it.
The government records show my medical was not stopped. Well it was then restarted after over six months with out care. It was restarted with limited and sub-standard care. My medical records are being buffed up to make me a crazy complainer. If a disabled veteran (or any citizen) can put in writing such crimes and the public is sheltered from learning of such criminal acts by our government “something is wrong”.
Judge Peter Fauver committed the worst crime in the history of this nation. Judge Fauver allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents for personal revenge. The Selectmen did not like this family. I volunteer my time to help this family and my medical is stopped as a weapon to stop me. The NH supreme court covered up this case. The NH elected officials use government powers to stop me. The Newspapers refuse to print the truth. There is a record to confirm what I am saying is the truth.
I served a 31 month tour overseas after I lost my memory to a Traumatic brain injury. I have questioned every aspect of life back here since I returned in 74. You have no idea of the degradation and humiliation I lived through as a US Marine and believe it was normal life. I came back to try to learn to be a good citizen by volunteering every day to help others. Get involved in government. Help kids in schools and hospitals. I returned to this country with three more combat related injuries that totally effect my daily life every single moment. The American legion evicted me from their property and the VFW has distanced themselves from me. Where to go?
I came back to a place that I do not belong. There is nothing that I can do to stop these wrongs if the people want to keep them. That is a free society. I have to question where I went wrong and the best way to keep the United States a nation for the people. The history of a nation means nothing if even one individual is allowed to be silenced by government wrongs. I gave my life for you so that everyone could live in a nation where justice was equal for all citizens that belonged. I should not have killed that child to get my weapon back and escape. Did I ever really come home. Do I really write these letters or am I still dead in a benjo ditch waiting to be set free. I need to see the light.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi

Why Me 12-4-08

Why Me 12-4-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
This is a question many people can ask many times in their lives “Why Me”. Can you imagine. I love these words because it would have to be a foreign nation where special people have privileges above the general population People being singled out by government personal to be inflicted with hardships and punishment just because they asked to be treated equal. The United States! everyone has equal treatment of the law. This is the Law. You do not want to hear how a Madbury NH family that does not violate the law is persecuted because the town selectmen do not like this family. How Judge Peter Fauver used the power of the courts to enable these selectmen to use government powers to harm local residents. How the NH supreme court covered up the case. How the NH government used court and government powers to silence a disabled citizen to stop this citizen from volunteer helping this family. How this disabled volunteer is a 100% service connected disabled US Marine. Three of the four injuries came from separate combat related missions. You do not want to hear how the NH US Rep used her federal powers to harm this disabled veteran. How the VA stopped this veteran’s medical care to silence this US citizens free speech. How the news media has censored this Veteran’s opinion letters because they (the Editors) disagree with what this persons opinion is. The VFW and American legion have distanced themselves from this disabled Veteran. Other citizens laugh at this disabled Veteran because he gives his all for the United States of America with out hesitation. This question can be asked many times but not by this Veteran.
If the news media does not believe we the people are worth their time they will learn. We the people is the United States. I am proud of every aspect of my trying to volunteer my time to help this Madbury family. I am sorry that so much harm has been done to my family because I believe in the US so much. I came back to this “world” from a conflict with nothing. NO memory, family, friends because I had no memory from TBI. I have and will never stop trying to make this nation better for all equally. I do not want your money, thanks or anything else. It is you that has to realize freedom must be free and equal for all United States of America citizens. For the news media to censor my opinion only allows these criminal judges and government officials to continue to harm others. We must work as a nation to protect our freedom for all EQUALLY.
It can never be “Why Me” because we are one as a nation. Think about it.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

The Volunteer 12-3-08

The Volunteer 12-3-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I volunteer to help others. I have not violated the law. I am 100% disabled from my time serving during the Vietnam Conflict in the US Marine Corps. Why am I not protected against cruel and criminal acts of abuse by government personal. I volunteer every day to help someone. It does not matter whom you are. I have asked nothing and when people try to give me a gift or something for my help I refuse. Why do we have the American’s with Disabilities Act if the government can use my military disabilities as a weapon to stop me. I write this letter because of what happen to me yesterday while I volunteered helping another. We stopped at this business to fix a desk lock on one of the owners desks. I left to get a tool from the truck, when I returned the owner was telling my friend about the zoning problems they had trying to build in this town. He was describing a person in Lee that volunteers to help others. His comments made me proud to have come home. He did not know my name or whom I was but his description of some one willing to give so much and ask nothing brought a hidden smile to my face. He described my art pile on Packersfalls Rd which brought a light to my friends eyes. I would have stayed anonymous but my friend introduced me as that person. This is why giving is so much better and it makes life better for others.
I every day bump into people that I have helped in the past, to school children that are now grown up or kids that I taught art to in schools across NH. I have adults that remember me from when they were children because I sat and talked to their parent in a time of need. I have county and government officials that thank me for some volunteer act that I spontaneously did to help some one or community event. The local Foster’s newspaper once gave me plaque for my volunteer work.
My disabilities are used as a weapon because I will not stop volunteering my time to help a Madbury NH family. Judge Fauver used the power of the courts to aid the Madbury NH selectmen using government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen do not like. People are afraid to help me because if the government and law enforcement can do this to me; if people help? it could and probably would happen to them next. People are afraid of the power of government. Even my friends tell me how much they support what I do but please do not use their names. The Newspapers censor my opinion letters to protect the establishment. My VA medical care was stopped for my for disabilities that I received defending the rights you as a nation deprive me of. Three of my four disabilities are combat related.
It has nothing to do with what NH is doing to me but I dream every day of killing my self because of the conflict of what I did as a US Marine and what society tells me are acts that rejects me from living in a civilized society. You have no idea the pain every day from my broken back, head injury, the humiliation of not being able to hear what others are saying to me from my being blown of the runway, or trying to explain the mental lapse of time that some times just occur as my mind takes a trip to times best forgotten.
I volunteer and continue to help because if the US is to stay free we must not let the establishment win. I came back alive and I owe those that gave their lives over the history of this nation this respect to make the United States better for all.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Who am I 12-2-08

Who am I 12-2-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Here is the eternal question of all time. “Whom am I” I am first of all a United States of America citizen. Natural Born and raised in the nation that I will give my life for. Can you imagine what it is like to wake up at 17 years old to have no memory at all and be a US Marine. I do not want to get into my 100% service connected medical conditions or that three of my four separate injuries come from combat related missions. I want to talk about how people can try but never quite understand what things that they have not experienced Are?? The biggest saying when someone found out that I have no memory is “That must be great, there are things that I wish that I could forget” Imagine not knowing your family, friends, or country. Get a grip on how it would be to, because of an Admin error; shipped over seas with no memory. Grasp the idea of killing or learning to kill as your first reaction to hostel encounters. TAD or transferred every few months to do missions in places that do not make sense. I could do things with no emotion or feeling because I believe what others told me was normal. I was a United States Marine with no memory or defeatist attitude. I knew no better. I learned to love the US (a place that I had no memory of) over my 31 months on foreign soil. I killed and felt proud before I have any memory of kissing my first “Round eyed girl”. Is the eternal question quivering in your mind yet?
Believing it normal for a female hippie girl spitting on me and calling me a baby killer as I entered the US, I thanked her. Believing silence of our actions over seas was the norm my experiences were kept with in me. I learned from my own experience over time by letting some conversations to divulged what happen, people’s reactions, rejected or plagued me as a liar and fabricator. A danger to society. For over thirty years I never talked about my trips (in my mind) back to where I belong. My first and biggest dream while serving as a US Marine was to some day actually see that what I only knew from other Marines conversations. The US! Some VA Dr’s have told me that I am not disabled, yet my medical records document it. My VA medical was stopped, yet I am rated 100% disabled. I do not act as a disabled person, yet I am 100%. The VA (person in charge) told me to commit suicide, yet society looks down on those that do. The newspapers reject my opinion letters, yet claim freedom of the press. The Boston Globe sends me an email telling me to commit suicide before sending another letter to the editor, yet history tells us that our government is based on “We the people” opinion. Judge Peter Fauver criminally violates the Constitution to help the Madbury NH selectmen get personal revenge by using government powers to harm local citizens the selectmen do not like, yet we claim this is wrong. The NH supreme court covers up these crimes, yet we claim the purpose of the Supreme court is to protect the people from government abuse.
Does the question ask you any thing? Did I miss understand what other Marines told me was the purpose of the United States of America. I ask this eternal question from my seat in the lead truck on convoy some where. The conflicts in my mind tell me that my coming back to the US alive will be wrong. The eternal question of all time WHY?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

AP response: Child Responsibility 12-01-08

AP response: Child Responsibility 12-01-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
“Children, Lie Cheat and Steal, but say they’re good” New York AP puts out article describing “Americans are too apathetic about ethical standards”. The ethical standard of the news media has lapsed or banished of any ethical standard so where do they get the right to mock our children. Newspapers are a private business but have unwritten laws or rules which our forefathers granted them Constitutional protection because of the importance to “We the People”. The opinion of the people to write letters to the editor to point out the wrongs in government. We the people being able to respond to newspaper articles or editorials as an honest counter view. Children get their ethics or personality development from adults. If the news media has no ethics and looks for way to violate the people’s trust this is what our children will learn from. It is like being the states leading newspaper and holding journalism school where the only ethics is how to manipulate the truth to sell more papers. It is called sensationalizing the story. Our children develop from the environment that they grow up in.
It is like the way we treat Veterans. 89% of the US population will never serve in our military. Children are taught (the unwritten rule)to respect veterans when it can aid their lives. Children learn to ignore or question what these veterans are and what they did? It is called freedom of expression. My Response to AP and News Media over the past years has been ignored by the news media or manipulated to be used as material to harm my character in the public eye. I ran for NH state senate this past primary. The news media wrote great articles about other candidates but used damaging one liners to turn the voters against me. The news refused to print my opinion letters to inform the voters of my platform. The Ethics that the media demonstrates for our children is what they will learn.
Judge Peter Fauver criminally violated the Constitution. Judge Fauver used the powers of the court to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to get revenge on local residents for personal reasons with government powers. This would be a libelous statement if it was not the truth and verifiable. This statement is document in NH Supreme court records as the truth. The NH supreme court covered it up. I have violated no laws. What I have done is volunteer my time to help US citizens from a different town than I live in because that is what US Marines do. We give our lives to Protect and Defend our Constitution. We respect and honor every US citizens rights to be treated equal and just under the law.
I am a 100% service connected disabled Veteran. Three of my four disabilities are combat related from separate missions. The VA went so far as to stop my medical care to aid NH in stopping my letters to the editor. The VA director in NH told me to commit suicide. The AP and the news media refuse to inform the public. The news media went so far as to allow the Boston Globe to tell me to commit suicide in an email before I send them another letter to the editor. Do ethics exist in the news media or AP?
If the AP wants to talk about ethics in our children maybe they should print the response of the public to their own “Apathetic ethical standards” that our children will learn to follow as the future standards of journalism. It is hard to teach that which you lost to sensationalism. Is my response to truthful to publish as all my other letters are?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

God Did Answer 11-30-08

God Did Answer 11-30-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Yesterday was tough! I finished writing my letter with out knowing it. It went out by email because several people that read it, left me messages. I was so caught by the response that I went back and read it my self between un-inclusive ventures. I spent the day in front of the TV watching foot ball games as a cover. This way my family thought that I was to interested in the game to answer them. The times that I did answer was in between trips deep in my mind. I do not remember seeing one complete game. I am sure after 28 years my wife does know me, but she respects my wish to not show my medical problems to others. I was impressed by what I read. If I can write such revealing opinion letters stating facts that reveal wrongs in government why has no one even answered my letters. The VA has a federal law that requires them to answer disabled veterans complaints within a required maximum number of days. The VA has not answered one of my thousands of complaint letters. Judge Peter Fauver is a criminal that violates the law in the name of justice and the NH supreme court covers it up. NH governor Lynch knowingly or unknowingly allows the NH government to violate the law to crush me. NH’s US Rep uses her federal powers to have a VA Dr file commitment orders to take my freedom by using my 100% US Military medical conditions as a weapon against me. She is allowed to file false police complaint with the Dover NH police to get me arrested to stop my letters and no one says anything to her. The newspapers refuse to print my opinion letters. The VA to aid the NH government to stop my letters has stopped my medical care. The person in charge of the NH VA told me to commit suicide and my complaints are ignored. The News Media (Boston Globe)told me to commit suicide before writing another letter to the editor. The Boston Globe did this in writing as is all the other criminal violations of the constitution documented in this case so I ask why????????
God Did Answer Me. I must have never completed my last convoy. As A US Marine I lost my complete memory from a car accident right out of boot camp. I have no memory of my child hood, family, or friends. I dream of seeing the US just once before I die. I have been injured so many times in the requirement to complete mission at all costs the final injury must have happen. I do not believe in God but others tell me, all Marines go to h-ell for what we do. If there is a God; he must be telling me “h-ell for this Marine” is to continuously see the nation that he gave his life for violate the belief’s other Marines told him were the reason we do these violation of a civilized society daily.
God must have answered me because there can be no other reason for the news media to violate every ethical belief to punish this US Marine in eternity. Freedom of the press does not cover Marine doomed in H-ell.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

My letter to the editor 11-29-08

My letter to the editor 11-29-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
My letter “Am I God” is being published in several newspapers in NH and across the U.S. If there was any question of false or untrue facts these judges and government officials would be all over me. There is no legal way to stop my writing letters exposing wrongs in government. This is the United States of America and we should all be proud during this holiday season to be so lucky to live where the people have rights. We should demand all newspapers print my letters to let the people be informed. Most NH newspapers went so far as to interfere with a free election this past primary. They not only censored my opinion letters but they published one liners to harm my character in the public eye. The news media in NH must be so intimidated by the truth they refuse to print the response of the average citizen. Amanda Merrill is a great person and she will be a credit to every US citizen as she represents us in the NH state senate. My point is, it should have been the informed voters choice. Not the editors controlling the public’s knowledge of the facts. Ask why the news media is so afraid of printing the truth. My facts are documented in the NH Supreme Court papers. Yes the NH supreme court refused to hear a case that clearly documented Judge Peter Fauver’s criminal acts to use the NH laws to intentionally harm US citizens. Judge Fauver will get a copy of this letter along with 2800 others. This letter will be goggled and published on many blogs across the US. All my letters are. The newspapers are the only one to censor them.
It is not just the news media. Our NH elected officials refuse to help a 100% disabled US Marine. Judge Fauver allowed the Madbury NH selectmen to use government powers to get revenge on local residents that the selectmen did not like. The Madbury selectmen will read this letter. They will get mad but there is no legal action they can do to stop the truth. I volunteer to help this Madbury family because it is the right thing to do. It is not easy. I have been put in jail on bogus charges. I have been fined for no illegal acts. I have had my VA medical stopped as a weapon to stop my letters. The local sheriff thinks it is funny to arrest me as intimidation to help Judge Fauver in is quest to defeat the public. The VA refuses me medical care but asks me to commit suicide. The news media ( Boston Globe) asked me in an email to commit suicide. The US Rep from NH used her political powers to have a VA Dr. file false commitment orders to take my freedom. She also filed false police complaints to get me arrested. The NH governor sends the state police to inform me “my letters are causing problem in the state capital the NH governor (Lynch) would prefer that I kill myself”.
The editors allow a night mare to continue. The response of the people to the criminal acts that the news media is allowing judges and government officials to commit against a disabled person is unreal. I lay here in this Benjo Ditch wanting so much to see the US just once. The truth is the pain and misery of existing one more day in such choate conditions can (the US be much better) killing my self be the way. Mom Dad don’t take this letter wrong. I am just trying to pass the boring moments of the long waits before the convoy continues. I will write again soon. Your loving son.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Boys, children response

Response to 7th grade Boy 11-28-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
How a child can make a difference or help the community? Placing wreaths on the graves of fallen U.S. Military makes for good headlines. As many times before: you miss the point. Respect and Honor what these young citizens did it for. They became Veteran’s, some came back to fill a productive life. Others came back disabled by seeable disabilities while some came back dead or not at all, for your Constitutional rights.. Others came back looking normal but in years to follow the demons of war will cripple these Veterans only to be stereo typed by society as criminals or homeless, lazy individuals. We and I believe that I am speaking for most if not all Veterans “we are not looking for your pity or praise”. We want you all to learn why we did it. We want you to learn the purpose and history of the Constitution. We want you to Respect and Honor by not diminishing the equal protection for all that the Constitution gives us. We want the government to serve the people not master them. Society treats veterans as second class citizens until a politician needs to use us to benefit their public image during an election year. Learn why Editor’s censoring a opinion letters is out right wrong.
The newspapers will not print my response because they disagree with my opinion. I am a disabled Veteran from this child’s home town. You meaning “all citizens” do not realize the harm each editor censoring my opinion will and does have on all the US. Judge Peter Fauver intentionally violated the Constitution with intent to harm a Madbury NH family. Fauver allowed the Madbury selectmen to use government powers to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen did not like. The NH supreme court covered up the case when presented to them. I volunteer my time to help this family and NH violates the law to stop me. NH’s US Rep used her political influence to allow my medical condition to be used as a weapon to stop my opinion letters. She filed false police complaints to get me arrested. The VA stopped my medical care to stop my opinion letters. Our elected officials, the law enforcement and the courts will not do anything to stop these violations of the Constitution. The Newspapers censor my opinion letters. If it was not for my sending over 2800 copies of my opinion over the internet each day no one would know. I ran for election to NH state senate this past primary only to be damaged by the newspapers to stop me. The editors printed one liners to damage my character in the public eye to interfere with the voters choice. How many other Veterans or citizens are swept under the rug. My opinion letters during the election were knowingly censored to stop the voters from learning.
The Constitution can not be allowed as the newspapers and government are doing for their own personal weapon to control society. The editor’s can not claim liability issues for not printing my letters. I send them to judges, government officials, newspapers and more every day. If a child wants to make a difference see that what we became Veterans for is not diminished in any way. Get involved in government and make it stand for We the People again. Make a difference by making sure Equal Treatment is not for only the select few. If this school want to know more about me the book that I wrote about my time in the Marine Corps is in their library
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

Am I GOD??? 11-27-08

Am I GOD??? 11-27-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Am I GOD! Is that why I will not die, now matter how close I come? Today is Thanksgiving. A day for us all to thank, I guess ourselves? I have many unanswered questions of “why I am here” “whom am I” “is this a dream and I am really dead” the list just keeps growing. Are you confused? Well so am I. Getting into the Veteran’s Admin stopping my VA medical care for my 100% service connected disabilities seems useless to talk about. The (I want to say lack of) compassion or even the slightest bit of caring from any individuals leaves me to thing that I must be invisible. I get calls every day from friends and people that I do not even know (that got my number from someone else) for help. I stop and talk to people that I meet on the street that seem to be in despair or just could use a friend for a second or too. I volunteer every day to help others because I came back alive. I believe I owe those that came home dead or never at all this respect to make our nation better in any way that I can. I am not asking for your pity. I get some hate mail from people and others just tell me to stop writing. Most tell me to keep going because it is about time that someone stood for right against the powerful. You (the people of the United States) can use me to illustrate what is happening to Veteran’s across the US. We have checks and balances to stop government wrongs yet in a case (where the Veteran has been lost under the rug) of some veterans there is no help. I have four serious medical conditions from my tour in the USMC. Three are combat related. It is against the law for the government to use anyone’s medical condition as a weapon to stop a person from writing letters to the editor. It is a slap in the face to our forefathers for the newspapers to censor the opinion of a 100% disabled veteran (or any citizen) when expressing wrongs in government. Even if the editors disagree with the opinion.
I guess wishing to come back alive to see the US once before you give your life for her is a night mare. It is one of those dreams if you understood what it meant you never would have wished for it. Judge Peter Fauver used the power of the court to allow the Madbury NH selectmen to seek and get revenge on local residents that the selectmen wanted to inflict harm on. The NH supreme court knowingly allowed this by refusing to hear a case that documented and spelled it out clearly to protect the legal empire’s dominance over the people. I volunteer my time to help Madbury NH residents and the courts and government use my medical condition to stop me. Everyone is to afraid to speak up for fear this will happen to them.
Thanksgiving is not a time to say thank you. It is a time at the end of harvest season where excess crops would be cooked and shared with others as a way not to waste them. I suffered head pain while drinking my coffee at a local coffee shop this morning. I wanted to die so bad at that moment. I do not want to live through another Thanksgiving. I am not GOD. I am a US citizen (that happens to be a 100% disabled US Marine). You the people of the United States of America are allowing our constitutional rights to be left to waste in the fields. I am not sure which is worse the pain from my disabilities received defending this great nation or the pain of seeing what our children (US Military) gave their lives for being diminished.
You in NH are doing this to me but let my life illustrated the pain you are doing to too many Veterans lost under the rug.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi

What makes NH great 11-26-08

What makes NH great 11-26-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Patrick from Mr. Gilmore’s geography class in Pawtucket RI, wanting local residents to talk about “What makes NH Great”? I left NH at 17 to become a U.S. Marine. I left the US after suffering a Traumatic Brain Injury (with complete permanent loss of memory from a car accident right out of Parris Island) from the US military hospital. I did the next 31 months over seas in and out of hostel territory during the Vietnam Conflict. NH is a small state that most other Marines never heard of. The closest was a Marine from Portland Maine whom was able to tell me what NH was like. I had no memory of my family, friends or state. I dreamed of making it back alive to see the state of NH one day as beautiful as other Marines described NH and the U.S. I returned in 74 to be spit on at the San Francisco airport by a hippy girl protesting the Conflict. I was discharged with in days and landed by small plane in the Lakes Region airport. The view of the large and small lakes warmed my needs to touch what was only a dream for so long. I hitched hiked the 15 miles to my home town school where I wanted to see the guidance councilor because with no memory I found education classes during my tour through the mail helped me. People that picked me up or I met while walking were friendly and out going. The average person then and now I find in NH are willing to give (either with a friendly word or help) as a natural norm. I found this across the US but in NH it seemed more natural. I met family and friends over the next few years Hiking, camping, or just enjoying the many social and natural elements of the area. I had trouble adjusting so drinking became my solution. I had receive two more permanent disabilities during separate combat related missions. The NH people (one in particular) identified my troubles because he had returned a few years earlier. He gave me a room and helped me get in to UNH. He could see my social skills were that of a Marine Sgt so he helped me adjust and conform to the civilized society. In NH small town governments are made up of local volunteers which in every town I lived, I participated. Volunteering in NH to help others is a major part of our culture. I find volunteering gives me a chance to get advice from older more wiser people and give at the same time. I came back alive so I feel giving is my small way of respecting those that never come home.
NH is as I am sure your state and all the other parts of the US are great. The United States of America is what we the people make her be. I re-live, living what I did every day and that is why last year the VA diagnosis me with PTSD. I lived in different friendly villages that my convoy stopped at nights where families lived and ate 11 or more to a small hooch. Where they ate with their hands because utensils were a luxury. I have seen life from both sides. You can write about NH but on this Holiday season the United States of America is where we are all equal in constitutional rights and that is what is special about the United States of America. In your report I hope you say thank you to those in our U.S. Military now and the Veterans that returned from past wars and those that never came home alive or at all. Thank You for reading my letter Patrick writing it means more than you realize Thank You for giving me the reason to write you.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper fi

Mental-Veteran-VA 1125-08

Mental-Veteran-VA 1125-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I remember my biggest concern while serving in the U.S. Marine Corps was that I would lose a limb during my tour. My biggest dream was living long enough to see the U.S. just once (that I would remember) before I died as a U.S. Marine. Losing a limb would have meant certain death, because I would have ended it. Instead I came home with no memory of life back here from TBI. A broken back from a Vietnam offensive. Loss of hearing in both ears from being blown off a runway. Now after thirty years out the VA diagnosed me with PTSD. I have struggled for over thirty years to live in a society that does not want me. Not me as a person but as a Veteran that did in-human acts and lives by a code of placing the U.S. Honor above anything else. Not me as an individual but me as all veterans.
Yesterday I wrote a letter VA violates law. My head was pounding and I have no memory of writing that letter. I know that it must have been just after I pressed the email button sending the letter to 2800 email address I laid on the couch with a bloody nose. I woke up several hours later when a friend called to ask for my help. I rode around on a commercial lawn mower vacuuming up leaves. My friend kept asking me where I was, during the day. I was caught in two worlds. One back here in the U.S. trying to make the best out of what I do not understand. The other was on convoy as American Advisor through hostile territory riding with men that did not speak any American.
The VA violated the law by stopping my VA medical. Having the Suicide hotline harass me. The person in charge of the NH, VA telling me to commit suicide. Restarting my VA medical with limited and sub-standard care. They do this to aid the NH government to stop my letters to the editor. What happen to the checks and balances to stop such criminal acts from harming a 100% disabled veteran? No one cares!
The newspapers across the U.S. refuse to print the truth. Many say it does not concern their readers. Many say this is a personal matter. Many say that their concern for libel suits out ways any possibility of publishing my letters. Many believe that I am a mental U.S. Veteran in need of care. I am a U.S. Military Veteran on an Island floating in a country that does not want me and a world that I do not belong. The Veterans Today magazine got my hopes up last year when they published my letters. They now censor a mental (with out care) veteran. I honestly understand why some U.S. Military commit suicide while serving in dangerous areas. They see the writing on the wall before coming back to a society that can not understand where they are? Some returning Veterans quickly learn and commit suicide once back. Many slip into a world of reliving what we have done only to be only alienated from the ones we love and a nation that can not accept us. I have been lucky I have a great wife that’s love endures my wavering lonely times. I have friends that create busy work to keep me safe in times of questions at a cost of time and money to themselves.
You see I realize that many if not thousands of Veterans feel the doubts of reality of why we came back. Many fit into society by camouflaging the dreams and memories of what others can not accept. Some die, others go to jail or become homeless.
Newspaper censoring the words of the people violates the code of US Honor.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi