Blood Mess 10-9-08

Blood Mess 10-9-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
A 100% disabled combat related U.S. Military Veteran is denied medical care and the news media and citizens are silent. I had a token visit with a VA doctor yesterday. The doctor that I saw is professional and trust worthy but my visit was so that my medical record shows that I am receiving care. A month ago I was typing on the computer when I felt what I thought was a tear drop come out of my right eye. I got up to go the bathroom at that time and looked in the mirror. It was a drop of blood. My right eye was red and blood shot. My head had been pounding to the beat of my heart all morning. I was slightly off balance and reality was skipping in and out. All of a sudden blood came rushing out of my nose. I tried everything to stop it and after what seemed like eternity I woke up on the couch. Blood was all over the bath room and TV room floor. This can not be right. I contacted the VA Hospital and wrote a letter describing the situation. I sent the letter out to over 1270 VA, government, news media and others. Not only does the news refuse to print my letters to the editor but the VA ignored my need for medical care. This is the second time that I have been in this bloody situation with my head pounding.
I remember my time on the couch because in my mind I was back on convoy deep in the “Bush” as American Advisor. I re-lived being taken from a friendly village that the convoy stopped for the night. I was taken to an enemy camp some distance away and tied up near a camp fire. One walked around the position out of sight while the other two sat drinking rice wine poking me and laughing. A few hours later the rice wine had put the two to sleep so I undid my hands and left. Not far from the camp site I notice the guard walking toward me in the dark. I stood still until he was next to me. I placed my hand over his mouth and placed my bayonet up under his ribs and twisted. Moments later when the movement stopped I released my hand to notice this child could not have been but may be twelve years old. I took my M-16 and ran the next few miles back to the village, rousted my drivers and started the convoy early that day. I felt proud of my self that day. I kept silent of what I had done because no other person on the convoy spoke our language. I never reported it to the base camp because I was under orders not to lock and load my weapon until “in eminent danger of death” I had peed my pans as I came back to reality (on the couch) of the day.
The VA stopped my medical care and the person in charge of the NH Veterans administration in Manchester told me to commit suicide. Not only does the News media refuse to print my opinion letters describing criminal acts by our government but my medical has been stopped. I volunteer my time to help a Madbury family that judge Fauver used the courts to help the Madbury selectmen get revenge on local resident that the selectmen do not like. The NH supreme court covered up the case to protect the dominance of the NH judicial branch. When a citizen speaks openly of wrongs in government retaliation is the last thing a citizen should receive. This is why I lost my freedom and my medical has been stopped.
I re-live the death and destruction that I caused in others life’s as a U.S. Marine every day. I do not feel bad for what I did. I can not accept that what I did was for the U.S. whom does not want us. Do you see (now) why I want to die. It is my reality. Freedom for this 100% disabled Veteran should have been over their. May be it was?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi