Veterans Today 10-12-08

Veterans Today 10-12-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
VFW and American Legion have left a 100% disabled veteran to die with out medical care because I dare speak freely about wrongs in government. I read today in the paper about NH’s VFW commander blasts Shea-Porter. Shea-Porter represents her self interests and uses the Veteran’s ideology as her platform. I voted for Shea-Porter yet she used a VA doctor to attempt to involuntary commit me to stop one of my letters to the editor. She also had the Dover NH police arrest me on a false police complaint to stop a letter. To keep Shea-Porter on the VA’s side my medical was stopped. The person in charge of the NH VA in Manchester told me to commit suicide. These are documented facts. Along with the Governor of NH Lynch sending the state police to my home with the message my letters are causing problems in the state capitol my suicide would be preferred and the Boston Globe telling me in writing to commit suicide before writing another letter. The American Legion in Manchester NH physically removed me from the club because Shea-Porter was coming and she was more important than a veteran. The News media refuses to inform the public of the truth. I love how the public tells me not to kill my self because my volunteer work helps so many. I came back to a place that I do not belong. It is like I am still laying in a benjo ditch deep in the “bush” waiting to die. Is this just a dream as punishment for the uncivilized acts that I performed on a daily bases as a U.S. Marine with out guilt. Ask why no editor dares print any of my daily letters to the editor. Is the opinion of the people a dream (other Marines told me about) that U.S. citizens believe exists in a free society.
To this day, I have no memory of any part of my life before my 31 month tour over seas. I lost all my memory after a Traumatic brain injury just out of boot camp. I was injured twice more in separate combat related missions. The innuendos that I hear in other conversations daily about the in-human acts of our military during the Vietnam Conflict and even today by every day citizens. These innuendos make me question my lack of responsibility for what I did. I killed a boy in hand to hand combat to escape and get my M-16 back. I helped destroy other people’s lands and homes. I helped send attack aircraft off to bomb innocent people that I did not even know. I disregarded the lives of men in my command just to complete a mission. I feel no guilt, what does that make me?
Many mornings when I drive to town for coffee I revert back to being on convoy deep in the “bush”. The Conflicts in my mind attempting to distinguish between then and what I have learned since I came back to a world, that I do not belong. I volunteer to help people since I came back in 74 every day. I violate no laws. With-out memory over there I question reality every day then and now. Was death and destruction what life is? I seriously decide to run my jeep into something but I hope to see the U.S. some day.
I never left a man with out medical care when the mission was completed or the situation allowed it with out jeopardizing the mission. I learned not to let my emotions or feeling to effect my decisions. What the VFW and American Legion (leaving a Veteran to die) are doing is what the U.S. is? The United States of America have joined the U.S. military Veterans in allowing political needs to distinguish whom gets equal justice. I came back to a place that I do not belong. Or did I ever come back?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi