Dr Dan Where is the people 10-29-08

Dr Dan Where is the people 10-29-08
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
How can one talk to Dr Dan or any one else? I am a U.S. Marine I trust no one; Nothing is real! Life is strange! Writing a letter like this, I realize how it is going to be defined and subject to review. One just has to look at the meaning of reality. I came into this world for all intents and purposes at the age of seventeen. That is when my mind woke up in the Portsmouth military hospital. I have TBI. Traumatic brain injury. People one day told me that I was a Marine. So what?? People told me whom my parents, brothers and sister were. Big deal? I was shipped overseas for 31 months as a U.S. Marine. My assignments and orders were to complete the mission at any cost. Risk others lives and destroy anything in the way to complete the mission. I was to keep my mouth shut when asked question on what I did. Others do not believe that I have no memory of my life before the age of seventeen. Others can not conceive that my words are the truth. I have become accustom to the questions and situations caused by having no memory. I do not understand but that is different. I have lived through some really tough situations believing this is normal life and my mission is all that counts. I learned social skills as a U.S. Marine, that you back here call despicable. You are what you learn! I have tried to change but how. For 31 months overseas as a U.S. Marine I survived with limited hearing and a broken back believing every one suffered as this. I came back to be spit on and called a baby killer in the San Francisco airport. I did not take offense for years after because I thought the U.S. was as I had been living. I like Dr Dan, (with what is happening because I learned what the Constitution was, is and now people perceive my obligation as a U.S. Marine and my obligation to protect and defend the Constitution) how far? Dr Dan is one of the nicest people and caring. I have qualified Dan as someone that helps people over obeying the system‘s disregard for care . The question is, that trust can defeat you? In a conflict you kill those that oppose you. Here in a civilized society you trust and then you are doomed to what the consequences end. I have many times wanted to talk to Dr Dan. How? I can trust him or can’t. He is a part of the system or not. He is trying to get into my head to end this or lock me up? Reality!
I learned and trusted that the U.S. had laws that people lived by and a Constitution that protected people against government wrongs. Trust to me was believing that the checks and balances of the system would protect the people against any one group becoming dominant to violate the people’s trust. Judge Fauver violated the Constitution to help the Madbury NH selectmen get revenge on local resident that the selectmen did not like. U.S. Rep Shea-Porter interfered with a disabled veterans medical care. The VA stopped my medical care. I was locked up as a terrorist. The newspapers refuse to print the truth. If all this and much more was not documented truth you could question my mental state. The Facts are that I am in a place that I do not belong. I can not adjust fast enough to obeying the law and having people (government officials and law enforcement violating the very rules, laws and Constitution which is the base for my reality as a U.S. Marine) want more. Reality no longer exists. No one believes me or will help me. I have volunteered every day to help others. I am standing on an island where everyone praises me but silently rejects me. How can one talk to Dr Dan when reality is not possible. Trust does not exist where reality is not present. Am I depressed? I will tell you what I am “I am in a deep hole and there is no way out. Others around me are telling me this is where all Marines end up. It is called Hell. I am a U.S. Marine that believes doing the right actions to protect and defend our Constitution can not be stopped or altered. May be I learned something wrong. I survived as a U.S. Marine to defend what I learned was the rights of the people. These rights are documented facts, yet documented facts do not seem to matter in this world.
I am a 100% disabled United States Marine, or am I? I write letters every day for a belief in a nation to make her better. People question what I write, my medical and mental condition. All my letters contain total truth yet the news stops (the checks and balances to correct the wrongs in government) this with their distorted truths.
When I end this letter I will go off and volunteer help to some one. I will appear as every one else. The numbness around my left eye, head pain, body and back pain, questioning the reality around me is always there. While volunteering I may and may not drift into a world no one else can see. Most of the time I can identify when being alone is the only way to keep others from the fear of my unconscious state.
The editors and government officials label me as a danger to society. I am not. This is their way of covering up wrongs in government. Look at the articles the editors and government printed when I ran for election to NH state senate this past primary. Amanda Merrill is a nice person and the state should be honored and pleased to have her as your next NH state senator. I personally know Mandy from around town and I will tell you that she is a credit to NH. The Voters should have had the unbiased choice.
NH elected officials need to look at what is happening. This is my country also. Dr and others I hope you can understand why? The truth is with the moral degrade of the newspapers and government society can no longer trust.
I just got off the phone with Dr Dan. This is what I would have told him if trust was there. I send this letter out to the United States of America to show that his Marine does love this nation. It is to bad the Editor’s can not see to inform their readers.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi