Bad Day 1-30-09

Bad Day 1-30-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Yesterday, I was to depressed to write. I am sure that made a lot of the people that dread seeing my emails happy. It is so funny! I am remembering my depressed state of mind more and more. It has grown to the point that when not depressed I dream of ways never to go back to it. It never works. I will hear a song or a situation, thoughts and reality, just engulf my mind. My world becomes, as it was or is what I am thinking real (and I am dreaming that I did come home) for eternity and that is why the end is never near. Can you (meaning the people of the U.S.) tell me ( a 100% disabled U.S. military Veteran) how allowing elected officials to violate the Constitution can happen and no one cares enough to speak out. We the people of NH elect new officials and these new ones fall into the same boat. It is the same in Washington DC. Our elected officials have taken so many liberties that they are just wasting away the entire United States. The Rich are getting richer on the backs of all the no-bodies that make up the U.S. In a small way with zoning, the economy, taxes and other! our government is making it so only the elite club can survive while the average person just struggles. Our elected officials approve bonus for the rich that we the people struggling to find how to pay for the next meal. We have to vote for whom the Dem or Rep party put on display for us, so that they can call it the voters choice in a free election. My guaranteed constitutional rights have been so diminished that the NH governor can charge a voter (me) two hundred dollars to speak (with out conditions) for thirty minutes. Not only having to pay to speak with governor Lynch wrong but the governor shafted me. We never spoke.
Is reality here in the land of the free or am I never going to get out of this benjo ditch> Newspapers do not want to print my opinion letters because they dribble on. My letters do not make since. My letters harm people with good reputation. I am a 100% disabled veteran that is willing to give every thing for you the people of the United States of America with out conditions. Are the editors reason good enough to accept as real?
As unrealistic as it sounds and many of the situations that I have lived through do, jumping the other day to end it and having the wind pick me up and a birch tree lower me to the ground safely makes reality harder to believe. It is just like having laws and rules that only the average person has to obey. The special elite few can do as they wish no matter how much pain and suffering it inflicts on the N0-bodies. I guess the key question to ask some day is, “if this 100% disabled veteran can be in such a state of mind, why was his medical stopped”. What went wrong with our system of government? The key question might me “How could our government inflict so much harm and pain on a disabled veteran and we the citizens of the U.S. never saw it”?
The answer must be that this is not reality and I was never here. I am stuck in a benjo ditch for eternity. I am proud to be a United States Marine even if the country that I serve for can not accept that I did it for our nation “The United States Of America”
We the ones willing to give can never come home because you the people we did it for do not want to accept us. We are the U.S. Military Veteran, that gave our lives for you.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi