Public Radio 1-15-09

Public Radio 1-15-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
On public Radio this morning a Marine was being interviewed about playing golf in the Da Nang Golf tournament. Did he have an apprehensions about returning to Vietnam after so many years? Just yesterday I was talking to a Army veteran stationed in Da Nang 68-69. There is no purpose to these incidents they are just thoughts that came into my head while writing. That is what happens. My medical condition does not fit any protocol. I do not create symptoms to meet what the doctor would call normal. My medical conditions are what the VA diagnosed. I have a head injury from a car accident right out of boot camp which left me with no memory. I have a loss of hearing from being blown of the runway during a Vietnam offensive. I have a broken back from a different Vietnam offensive. I came back to the U.S. with no memory of ever being here before. I met my parents and family for the first time that I remember on that day. The Marine Corps dumped me into a world that I dreamed of living long enough to just see once before I died. All this could be true or it could be something programmed into my head by our government to see what will happen when someone with no memory is made to believe and react to different situation. The one situation that never leaves my mind is to make the United States of America first. This I learned in sub-human conditions as a Marine during my first years of memory. Apprehension that the public radio interview can talk about but can not feel. I am a 100% disabled Marine with medical disabilities that can not get medical care. What is public radio or any form of public communication for if only symptoms that can be explained are talked about. Is censorship the U.S. protocol? Do ethics and morals have any meaning?
I would be woken up in the middle of the night for missions that my CO would call “For the U.S”. I would be put on a flight to some place (where hell would be at home) to repair something. I for some reason had the ability to repair things with what ever was available. I would be sent on convoys as an America Advisor and live in conditions that I believe were normal. No record exists to a lot of situations that I survived are they true or just memories that I can not get out of my head. I would be told that I can not talk about things and situations when I returned to base camp. Did I really jump off the other day to stop the memories by landing head first on some rocks? Is it possible for the wind to stop such a situation by hooking my pant leg on a tree top and lowering me to the ground safely. Does the cut on my upper leg mean anything. Am I doomed to live with out medical care to see how someone that should never have come back will react? Is this why no matter how bad the situation got over there I could live with the pain to complete the mission no matte what? The U.S. must come first.
I can not explain a lot of things just like public radio. I can not explain why U.S. public communication blocks the public from hearing the opinion of a U.S. Marine that could have been there. I can not explain volunteering to help others every day because that is what I am. I can not explain Carol Shea-Porter’s claiming to help Veterans when she causes a lot of my pain for coming home, or the NH governor shunning me. Did I ever really come back or am I still dreaming of seeing the country that I place first no matter what. Does U.S. communications have ethics and morals?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi