Killing the Village Dog 1-18-09

Killing the Village Dog 1-18-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
I have no idea it is true or real, it has always, as long as my memory is; with me. Killing the village dog with an entrenching tool. The other day was so cold and windy. I was sweating with layers of clothing in my solar heated 80degree house shivering with cold. Does it make since. Killing the dog to stop his given my position away and a bloody bayonet just kept circling my mind. There are no other memories of the dog that I recall. There never has been. The memory of the dog is like the convoy where I escaped and ran back to the village after passing my test to be a U.S. Marine. These memories are with me every day. I stuck a bayonet in a child to get my M-16 back. The convoy facts are one of many memories that I remember of my tour. I have vivid memories every day of different events. The dog I have never been able to explain. I just remember beating a dog with an entrenching tool to keep my position. This is the first time I told of the dog.
Can the facts in my life be to fantastic to be real. The facts of my life after discharge have been just as un real. I have a fantastic, beautiful wife and three great daughters. I have a fantastic house and everything else any one could want. Why? Is this real. Some of the things that I have done in civilian life are just as crazy and unreal to be true. But they did happen and are real. Can you imagine telling a judge in a court room that his actions are criminal right to his face. Judge Fauver violated the constitution on purpose and I told him. Can you imagine volunteering to help people you only know from the phone call asking for your help. Can you imagine taking on the Madbury NH selectmen because they are using government powers to get revenge for personal reasons on this family. Can you imagine volunteering every single day of your life to help others and the NH government declaring you a terrorist under the Patriot Act. Can you imagine going to jail because you believe in the Constitution so much. All this makes no since just like believing that the courts would protect criminal government actions to harm the individual against everything this nation (U.S.) is built on. The NH supreme court condemned me, by refusing to hear a case about a criminal judge. Is this believable?
I remember how much freedom that I felt after jumping. I was floating through the air when a gust of wind wrapped around me. The joy of ending the memory of what I have done. The peace of knowing a better place must be near. The feeling of raising up ward when all logic says that when you jump to land head first on rocks far below one always travels down. The pain in my leg as the branch on the top of a birch tree ripped through my pant leg and stuck in my upper leg. The grace full descent to the ground as the tree lowered me with ease. The memory of the mortar round that destroyed the out house that I exited seconds earlier became real as the sound of the tree snapping echoed through the air. Can any of this be true. Does the eternity of h-ell rage for those that committed those uncivilized actions for a freedom that we will never enjoy.
Does the newspapers censor my opinion because it is questionable if truth or reality really exist in this U.S. Marine. Is censorship what Martin L King had in mind as President Obama takes the oath of office tomorrow. Can change happen “I had a dream” My dream was to see the U.S. just once before I died. I wish that dream never happen. Can I really be in a country where freedom is for all the people black or white?
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper Fi