Depressed 1-22-09

Depressed 1-22-09
Peter Macdonald 465 Packersfalls rd Lee NH 03824 603-659-6217
Dejected, downcast, sad, gloomy, are powerful negative words. Could it be that I stayed huddled in a dark room all day yesterday trying to give reason to continue. Life just does not make any since. The Veteran’s Administration violates the law to harm a disabled Veteran and our elected officials and judicial branch of government labels the 100% disabled Veteran a danger to society and rejects him. Is not the primary function of our government to be of the people for the people. VA and government officials read my letters every day not for the content but to identify words that they can deprive freedom and possible get me to commit suicide. The other day I imagined peace and harmony as I floated to the ground. When the wind wrapped around and took me toward the sky eternity engulfed my mind. When the branch stuck in my leg, reality seemed gloomy as the birch tree lowered me to the ground. I became downcast and sad. I was ordered by a VA official to commit suicide or take mind altering drugs. The record exists as if society sees rejecting a 100% disabled Veteran is a benefit to the U.S. budget The NH elected officials use the law to inflict harm on a 100% disabled Veteran to cover up government wrongs. Everyone is afraid of losing their safe haven to speak up to help a Veteran.
I have an intelligent, beautiful wife and three great daughters. I want for nothing except to make the U.S. a better place for all. I served my country as a U.S. Marine. I volunteer every day since I came home to help others. Here is the question. Did I really come home? It is hard for you all to understand with out being in my shoes. It is easy to label this disabled Veteran crazy because I do not conform to societies logic of what is acceptable in another. I have not violated the law. You try coming back to a country that you love and fought for with no memory of ever being here before. You try making since out of all the strange situations cast at you with no back ground on how to react or reject. Does it make since that I should have such a great life when society see me as a danger. Does it make since that society tells me volunteering makes a better person then slams the jail door shut. Does it make since that the NH government can violate the law and society turns a deaf ear. Does it make since that the newspapers and NH government can interferer with a free election and no one will speak up. Does it make since that the news media would censor the words of a disabled Veteran being harmed. How can one have so much? Is this a dream and I am still in that benjo ditch for eternity?
Our elected NH officials, judges and VA officials are violating the law to harm a disabled veteran and there is no recourse. Other Veteran’s write me, call me, and email me to ask for help in their situations. There are so many veterans out there asking for help or that just gave up and accept eternity as the answer because society does not want us. How can any nation cast down on those that gave everything for their future freedom. The newspapers reject the opinion letters of this 100% disabled veteran as a way of reassuring society that I do not belong. I am not a depressed Veteran. What I am is as so many other Veterans lost in a country that does not accept us because we are the ones logic can not explain. My first words in this letter are the definition of depression. Can the editors explain why they? Forget it! There are a lot of words in this letter to come down on me for but may be, answers would be better for the United States to achieve.
I have so much but what we all need it to make the United States better for all.
Peter Macdonald Sgt USMC Semper FI